Monday, March 5, 2007

natalie grant











and i was pulling his hair.. haha.. he looks better when he has some stupid face instead of the formal kinds.. i have no idea why.. me? i can never take formal photos.. seen my identification card? the photo sucks! formal photos just isnt my thing.. haha.. but if it requires me to smile as in those casual photos, i look so much better for some reason.. i dont see the difference but yeah, there is a difference when i take them.. haha.. wrong vibes i guess?
haha..
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ooh!!! did i mention that shawn's getting contact lenses? haha.. for sports purposes.. fencing.. see, thing is, fencers have to wear this mask that wraps their entire head, covering also their neck. so they cant shove their hands into the mask and push their spectacles upwards.. frankly, i think they shouldnt name that thing a 'mask' i think they should change it to 'helmet'.. it really looks like a helmet to me, seriously.. haha!!!
so anyways, there isnt much going on in my life..


ooh!!! there's shaowei who's really interesting.. haha.. we were chatting on msn the other day and then ya-da ya-da..
then he wanted to curse and say the four letter word but he typed
"duck it man"
and then i told him no bad words in front of me and his reply was
"its duck! purposely for you ok"
then i told said
"whatever rock your boat. haha"
and he replied
"you!"
and i replied
"me? i rock your boat?"
and he said
"haha yeah!"
and i replied
"ohman.. are you flirting with me? haha"
and he said
"lol! praising you la! saying that you are a very impt part of my life! lol! are YOU trying to flirt with me!"
then went on and on about things and then before he went offline he said
"nights man! miss ya! meet up soon ya! nights!"



haha!!!
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although i'm pretty sure he meant it as a friend, still, it's pretty sweet wouldnt you say? haha.. yeah.. so the world still has sweet nice guys who do care after all..
(:
ooh!!! meet my new sexy..
milo ventimiglia

say it!!! you know you want him too.. haha!!!
but he's ALL MINE!!!
haha.. but i think he's attached though.. if you dont already know, he's peter petrelli on 'heroes'
the really cute guy-nurse who's like the most powerful among all the rest of the hero group.. haha.. he's so so handsome!!! if you watch the serial, and you took notice of him talking, you'd realise that one side of his bottom lip stays up.. which is so sexy.. and know what?! i have the same thing, except that mine isnt obvious.. haha!!! he's meant to be mine!!! oh darn.. if only he knew i actually exist.. haha!!! it's been actually quite some time since i've gone ga-ga over a celebrity.. haha.. and by that, i mean AGES.. haha.. like more than a year? do my friends have anything to say? jaychou was so 2 years ago, although i still think he's pretty cool.. orlandobloom is so a year ago... but i might just fall for him again when piratesofthecaribbean comes out this year.. haha!!!
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oh wells.. for now, i'll just sit back and enjoy the freedom of being single..
know what?
being single is good too.. see the good side of being single..

you can hang out with guys and you dont have to worry about some people recognising you and then tipping your boyfriend off saying that you were seen with other guys.
you can go out to clubs and dance with cute guys and not be pestered by your boyfriend who would then say you were cheating/flirting with other guys.
you can spend more 'love myself' time rather than thinking of what you can do to make your boyfriend happy.
you can spend more money on yourself rather than getting silly gifts for your boyfriend.
plus!!! minn and i realised that it's damn difficult to look for gifts for guys.. caps are so weird on some guys, those wooden bracelets things dont work on some, those tribal necklaces are so old school, shirts arent always the alternative because some guys just dont look good in nice shirts. and!!! what we girls think as nice as considerably horrible to guys..
i mean like, i walk along orchard road and i look at the guys' way of dressing and i sometimes think they have no dress sense although some clothes do look good on them but not on others.. it's like a chinese guy wearing malay guys tapered jeans.. get my meaning?!
so yes, spend more time and money on yourself is so much better than putting them on someone else who might just break your heart..
so until that day when you will DEFINITELY spend the rest of your life with that special guy, love yourself so much more than anyone.
and by that 'special guy' i mean HUSBAND.. not some boyfriend..
note : i'm NOT a sexist..
i guess i just feel that girls shouldnt blame themselves if a relationship fails.. especially those who love their boyfriend so much more than they love themself.. it's so not worth wasting your tears on them.. i cried my ass off when hongtat told me some things and now, looking back, i guess i felt that i had spent so much of my time on him that i felt like it was too difficult to let him go. but now, as i learn to slowly let go, to let God do His work, to lead me in this life of mine, to be patient, i guess the tears werent really all that.. i'm not saying that i cried for nothing, i'm just implying that maybe the tears were pretty uncalled for? i dont exactly know how to put this but i hope you guys get what i meant...

so anyways, being single is good too.. just wait for the right one to come along.. it's always worth the wait when you find that someone to spend the rest of your life with, who will love you despite all your flaws, respect you, accept you as you, and if there are changes to be made, will be mature and sit down and talk to you about it..
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now that is a part of a big thing called love..

vanessa