Wednesday, March 21, 2007

this morning was so nice to sleep to.. all cool and stuff.. i wish it'd rain more often.. i like the rain somehow.. especially the smell of the coming rain.. there's this distinct smell that comes before the rain arrives.. it's such a beautiful smell that i can actually get addicted to.. haha.. really!!!
(:
the wonder of God's creation..

work today was pretty okay, wilson was nicer and he said more things than he did on monday.. as in, as compared to monday.. haha!!!
i might even have a crush on him! woots!!!
haha!!! i cant really be bothered right now actually, just take things as they pass by me.. somehow, i guess maybe after all that has happened and with the book i'm reading now, i'm giving up on finding love.. instead, this time round, i'll let love find it's way to me, in God's own good timing, for His perfect will.. knowing that He will give me what He deems as good and fit for me.. always knowing too, that He loves me..
maybe i'm just not ready for a relationship in God's eyes, just not enough.. but it doesnt really matter to me that much anymore.. i'd rather have 1 single God-sent boyfriend who would then become my husband, then having tons of boyfriends, going through all the rubbish..
so love isnt going to affect me that much, not any more..
(:
of course i still care about ht, of course i do have feelings for him.. but it's just a matter of making that secondary to what SHOULD matter most to me now.. and that would be having fun..
AH HAHA!!!
-grins-
but yeah, haha. fun is for this holidays and then studies when school reopens.. haha!!! if love should come knocking at my door, i will answer..
that of course, would be seeking God first, and then answer.. God's going to come first in my life.. and it will stay that way.
(:

vanessa