Saturday, March 10, 2007

what do you do when you watch television shows go on about
"what would you do if you knew that today would be the last day of your life"
kind of thing?
watched grey'sanatomy and i almost wanted to mass send
"know i love you -vanessa"
text messages to everyone on my handphone's contact list.. and i mean it seriously.. but really, how does a person live each day as if it was his/her last? there are a thousand and one things i'd want to do before i actually die..

i'd want to have my first boyfriend.
i'd want to have my first kiss. (with the boyfriend that is)
i'd want to help out at this unknown turtle sanctuary which i saw on animalplanet but have no idea where is it.
i'd want to dress really nicely and be all girly.

and these are probably just the tip of the iceberg.. and so how do i go about doing all these things? what does it really mean to live each day like your last? i mean they say that we should put our all into the things we do and thus, making us live life to it's fullest everyday and at the same time, make us feel oh-so satisfied.. but really, who really does put in their 100% in EVERYTHING they do? okay, maybe SOME do but i would think, majority of us wouldnt be bothered about making everything so perfect.. would you?
i dont have answers to this question i just posted myself.. i dont know what i should expect out of each day, other than just being happy and stuff like that..
we all go to bed, taking for granted that we would wake up each day.. i mean like, what are the chances of something happening to us in our sleep? of course there is but i know it isnt that high a chance right? so help me understand when people tell you to live each day like you knew this day would be your last..
drop me an email or tag..
because i really dont know..
it's like, me liking hongtat and then everyday telling him that i like him.. which is so not right in the sense that, well, i dont think i might like him everyday because i dont think he cares kind of thing..
i love my girlfriends so i send them messages everyday that i love them? know, after awhile, it just gets a little boring and very mundane? then it becomes predictable.. they could probably go
"ooh, ya i know.. 1 new email from vanessa. just delete it"
kind of thing..

okay, maybe it's the period's that's making me so.. emotional? i dont know.. haha.. but yes, i still have no idea what "live like you know this day would be your last" phrase means..
ooh.. and i still dont like the new blogger.. it sucks..
>.<

vanessa