Sunday, April 15, 2007
today has been a little emotional although i didnt exactly shed any tears..
ivin and joyce shared about their baby girl jayna and how jayna's able to go home after spending a very time in the hospital.. they talked about God's grace, bringing them through this ordeal and stuff like that.. it just made me remember how things were for me, for all the prayers.. it wasnt the 'peak' emotional period.. this was more like the build up.. then danielchoo, the one leading worship today, sang 'who am i' and i just felt.. touched..
looking back at this whole week, after this much that has happened, i realised how God has really, truly been there for me, when He could simply have chosen not to because i am who i am, and it isnt in a nice way.. i am just another girl who might not make a big difference to the world if i were dead.. it's just one lesser mouth to feed, one lesser source of pollution isnt it? in fact, it might actually be better if i werent even alive.. what difference would i make to the world?
but still, God, in all His grace and mercy, chooses to be there for me, accepting me despite the fact that He knows i've sinned over and over, and still sinning.. it just amazes me, the way God touches my life, reminding me that He cares and He loves me..
so anyways, school's starting tomorrow and i'm not really looking forward to it because of all the stress and the work that i have to handle..
gah!
all i am excited about is meeting my friends.. haha.. (in no particular order) peggy, frances, huifen and nini... my clique.. haha..
(:
they are love.. haha. right now, i'm just wondering if i should bring my laptop to school.. think i'll text peggy and ask.. haha.. alright my sweeties, i hope all will be good this coming week and God bless!!!
(:
casting crowns
who am i
who am i, that the Lord of all the earth
would care to know my name
would care to feel my hurt
who am i, that the Bright and Morning Star
would choose to light the way
for my ever wandering heart
not because of who i am
but because of what You've done
not because of what i've done
but because of who You are
i am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
a vapour in the wind
still You hear me calling
Lord You catch me when i'm falling
and You've told me who i am
i am Yours, i am Yours
who am i, that the eyes that see my sin
would look on me with love and watch me rise again
who am i, that the voice that calmed the sea
would call out through the rain
and calm the storm in me
not because of who i am
but because of what You've done
not because of what i've done
but because of who You are
i am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
a vapour in the wind
still You hear me when i'm calling
Lord You catch me when i'm falling
and You've told me who i am
i am Yours, i am Yours
not because of who i am
but because of what You've done
not because of what i've done
but because of who You are
i am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
a vapour in the wind
still You hear me when i'm calling
Lord You catch me when i'm falling
and You've told me who i am
i am Yours, i am Yours
i am Yours
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
cause i am Yours
i am Yours
vanessa
