Tuesday, May 1, 2007

ahh!!! one more day gone!!! havent done much or as much as i wished because the laptop, which is the source of my knowledge, is the thing that's distracting me..
HAH!
-.-
i dont like things which contradict their purposes.. okay, which also means i dont like myself.. haha!!! because i contradict myself too! haha.. actually, i think most of us contradict ourselves whether we like it or not.. funny how we humans are.. always fascinating ourselves.. haha..

so anyways, this entire day has been wasted and i wish more of these days would come.. haha!!! i'm so freaking lazy i tell you!!! i'm nearly a hopeless case.. haha!!! i have to get down to being REALLY hardworking.. i cant imagine next week when i can spend the entire day watching television and nothing else..
O.O
oh no.. that is not good is it.. haha!!! i'll be even fatter with all the junk food at home.. haha!!
hmm.. i think i shall spend one day packing my table, making sure everything is where it should be.. it's getting a little messier already.. haha!!! it amuses me how i make sure things are neat when i'm not at home.. like at someone's house, in school and stuff.. how my water bottle has to be at the corner of the table and everything else should be folded neatly and tucked into place.. but you'll get a shock once you step into my room.. my table is always full of things that isnt placed neatly, my bed is NEVER kept.. for some reason, i prefer to see my bed messy.. i think it creates a sense of home for me.. haha.. i dont know why.. i REALLY dont know!!! i just prefer things this way somehow..
(:

ahh.. tomorrow's wednesday.. then thursday, then friday, then the start of a week's of no school but assignments.. haha!!! what am i going to do while waiting for these days to pass?! haha.. okay, other than the fact that there's homework to do.. haha!!

i suddenly have this passion for baking all over again.. ahh.. not good.. why not good? because my oven is fried and i dont know when's mummy getting a new one.. i want to bake cookies again.. and when i caught oprah winfrey today, i saw this recipe thing for instant chocolate fix.. the cook? rachel ray.. you can search for her on the internet.. she has a website on cooking.. i'm starting to get the itch for baking.. darn..
ooh! i think i know what to do!
i can borrow an oven from mummy's friend! she's called auntie jenny but shawn and i always refer her as the "8th floor auntie" just because she lives on the 8th floor and when we got to know her, we didnt know what her name was.. the same way we refer to one of our neighbours say
"1st house auntie" or "1st house uncle"
haha!! it's the same reason.. just because they reside just beside the lift and is the 1st house that we pass by everyday.. haha!!! isnt that something interesting?! haha.. i sure think so..
(:

anyways, life has been pretty good so far, i havent been in much trouble and i've been thanking God for stuff in my life.. but mum's taken ill again.. i dont like it when mummy becomes ill because everything doesnt make sense without her.. dinner is screwed if i do cook..
ahh.. she cant fall sick..
oh craps!
i need to crap.. haha!!!

ok.. back from a bathe and a nice crap time.. haha!!! i havent been crapping everyday and i need to crap everyday to be healthy.. and the crap has to be a long continous one.. haha!!! that is one healthy crap..

SO ANYWAYS!!! haha..
go to get down to doing work and finishing up everything that i have on my hands so i can have a week of lesser work.. haha!!!
dont we all need a blue sky holiday? oh yeah we do..


angels and airwaves
a little's enough

when all is said and done
will we still feel pain inside
will the scars go away with night
try to smile for the morning light
it's like the best dream to have
where every thing is not so bad
every tear is so alone
like God Himself is coming home to say

I, I can do anything
if you want Me here
and I can fix anything
if you let me near
where are those secrets now
that you're too scared to tell
I'd whisper them all aloud
so you can hear yourself

green trees were the first sign
the deepest blue, the clearest sky
the silence came with the brightest eyes
and turned water into wine
the children ran to see
the parents stoo in disbelief
and those who knew braced for the ride
the earth itself then came alive to say

i, i can do anything
if you want me here
and i can fix anything
if you let me near
where are those secrets now
that you're too scared to tell
i'd whisper them aloud
so you can hear yourself

i'm sorry i have to say it but you look like you're sad
your smile is gone; i've noticed it bad
the cure is if you let in just a little more love
i promise you this, a little's enough
just a little...


vanessa