Monday, May 14, 2007

monday 14/05/07

ahh.. monday!!! and i saw junguang.. and he saw me.. haha!!! i was so amused! i didnt see him board the bus so i took a seat and then after i'd settled down, i saw him!
so i decided to look the other way first and pretend that i didnt see him.. and i noticed from the corner of my eye, he was looking at me.. haha!! so i moved my head slowly towards his direction then i looked at him..guess what?! he then turned away! haha!! and this same thing repeated for like 3 times until he had to alight, 2 bus stops away.. haha!!!
i was so amused that i was trying hard not to laugh!!! and when he was standing at the exit of the bus, he turned to look at me and i looked back at him but didnt do anything.. not even a single smile of acknowledgement.. haha!!! how amusing can that get?! haha!! come to think of it, he isnt that bad looking you know.. like.. REALLY!!! haha!!!
(:
ohman.. super amusing..
i've really been seeing a whole lot of eye candies nowadays.. church has a pretty good amount of good looking guys too.. eh, actually, come to think of it, all the guys are good looking and very nice ones at it..haha!!!
i think most Christian guys are very nice and very gentlemanly..
but let me say something.. when i say Christian guys, i mean by those more mature ones.. some younger ones are just disgustingly rude..
-sulks-
ohman.. i'm typing this out in class because i'm trying so hard not to sleep.. i'm really falling asleep.. my eyes keep closing on me and i just cant stop yawning..
urgh!!!
this sucks.. this really sucks.. i dont like feeling so tired..
OH GET ME A BED!!!
haha!! i'm so lazy.. tsk tsk..
there is still so much work to do and i end at 1800 today.. what an unearthly timing..
haha!!! and if i go shopping, 1800 is such a early time to go home..
AH HAHA!!!
the mind is such an amazing thing.. haha!!!
ok ok.. blogger's up.. ooh.. all these, i've been typing out using notepad.. haha!! so all i do now, is to just copy and paste.. this is exciting.. haha!!!FINALLY!!!shall blog more tonight if interesting things come up and if i have time.. haha!! loves!

vanessa

sunday 13/05/07

mother's day.. ahh, this beautiful day.. went to church later because morning service was slated for another group of people..
finally got to wear my pretty flower heels with a totally new look.. i layered my tops! wore a white racer back and a brown one on top.. i felt like, the look wasnt put together very well..
i felt like a boxer or something.. haha.. had this guy-ish outlook somehow. haha..
so anyways, mother's day celebration was very beautiful today.. jonathan, daniel and graham choo sang a song
"you're never alone"
well, i dont know if they wrote the song but it definitely is lovely.. i cant believe how their entire family is so talented.. they can all sing so freaking nicely!!!
i hope they cut an album. it's really beautiful.. if you dont believe how good they can get, search youtube for
"jedimindless"
i think it's daniel who's singing.. not too sure.. but he plays and sings very well..then there was this other lady, jocelyn ong.. ohman.. she can really sing as well.. she wrote this song for her mother.. really beautiful too..
how come i'm not musically inclined?
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haha.. so, today, uncle yem made us (the kids) hug our parents.. somehow, when it came to me, at the moment when i hugged my mum and told her thank you, i teared.. like, i had tears in right in front of my eyes.. but it didnt come out.. i was just reminded of the times when mummy was always there, putting herself first and caring so much for me.. it just.. made me want to cry..
of course, i'm not going to start wailing and crying and show people that i did cry.. it's just not me.. i do tell on my blog, but it's different if i were to tell others face to face..
so yes, i'd say that mother's day is an emotional day for me..
i didnt get mummy anything this year.. initially wanted to get her an ipod shuffle.. if not an ipod mini.. which is the exact same one shawn has.. but shawn did point out a point that mummy always misplaces her things.. so i told her, wait until she can remember where she leaves her things, then i will get her the ipod..
well, mummy's going to sell her car pretty soon.. in june or july i think.. and since she's going to take bus everyday, to and fro wherever we go, i guess the ipod will come in handy..
(:
i am after all, a very good daughter sometimes.. haha!!!
(:
alright alrights.. nothing much today.. school's starting tomorrow and in around.. 3 weeks time, it's the start of a nice pretty holiday of 2 weeks.. or maybe 3.. haha!!love!!!


vanessa

saturday 12/05/07

well well.. it sure has been pretty long since you guys have heard/seen from me yes? haha..yeah, i know.. had been busy on friday, saturday and sunday because my laptop got infected by trojan viruses.. then blogger started to be really weird so i didnt want to blog.
alrights, quite a bit has happened since i last updated..

1. i've been seeing A WHOLE LOT of eye-candy around..
the first one i really took notice was this guy in the mrt.. was with shawn, on the way home from funan, from getting my external harddisk.
so on the mrt, this really good looking guy was sitting and i was standing.. i saw him and looked at him for awhile because, well, he IS good looking!
then suddenly, he looked in my direction and i turned away immediately.. haha!! it was so embarrassing!! so after awhile, i looked back and he wasnt looking so i continued looking at himhaha!!! then i looked away because we were at another stop and had to move for people coming in. then after moving, i looked back at him and saw him looking at me..
-blushes-
haha!!! so i looked at him for awhile and then i looked away.. then when we were nearing toapayoh, i saw him looking at me again.. then suddenly, shawn pinched my pimple..
-SCREAMS-
i was totally embarrassed.. like.. TOTALLY!!! ohman.. and i pulled away and then looked in his direction, coincidentally.. i didnt look in his direction on purpose! i promise! and he saw it!!!
-wails-
so when we reached toapayoh, i got off and on the escalator upwards, i looked back and saw him stretching out his neck.. i'd give myself the benefit of the doubt and say that he was looking for me..
haha!!!
ohman.. i was so sad!!! i initially wanted to take a picture of him and show him to the closer friends.. haha!!! pst! he looks better than hongtat.. really!
then the second time was the following day which's monday.. went back to school with changmei so i can get help for my laptop.. the bus we took wasnt air conditioned so there was major warm wind that blew our hair all over the place. then changmei pointed out this other guy who was sitting opposite us who was trying to keep his hair out of his face, the same way we were doing to ours.. haha.. then when i looked, that guy looked pretty smashing.. haha.. but he was pretty big sized too.. he was about.. 1.5 of my size.. which is not bad considering he would have nice big arms to make me feel safe in.. haha!!! ohman.. obsession!!! haha!!! can you imagine if your boyfriend's hand was smaller than yours? i'd feel rather weird if my boyfriend's hands were smaller than mine.. it'll practically seem like as if i was protecting him instead of him protecting me isnt it? haha!!!
then there was the other one, which happened i think, on tuesday.. i think.. yup.. then i was on the way home from school and at the bus stop, this guy alighted and he sat right beside me.. he caught my eye almost immediately and i saw his face..
i tell you.. he's so good looking.. haha!!! but his tan was kind of too dark because i initally thought he was a malay.. haha!!!
there.. nearly all the eye-candies i've seen.. i think there's definitely more but i didnt take notice.. haha..
so anyways, this entire week has been a hectic one, with one plan after the after.. work pile after the other and i had totally forgotten about one of my quiz and it's assessed.. which made me so so down yesterday while window shopping with my buddy.. 10% of my grades.. that is a lot considering i'm not so good at studies.. so yes.. i am pretty upset about it.. just going to pray so hard that the teacher is nice enough to let me do it again somehow..
today, at the time i am writing, is the 12th of may, which is hongtat's birthday.. it's funny how i can remember his but sometimes forget my girlfriends ones..
as usual, i texted him wishing him happy 21st birthday and he didnt reply.. not even a thanks.. geez.. the way he treats his friends is just.. horrible.. i'm not trying to get into his good books or anything like that..
-shakes head-
but this year, will probably be the last time i'll get him presents.. made the usual cookies and an extra cupcake this year.. made them at minn's house.. haha.. she made the same stuff for her boyfriend's birthday which is the same day as peggy, which is one day before hongtat..
haha!! ok ok.. which is the 11th of may.. haha!!! happy birthday people!
(:
so yes.. we met up on the 10th and i passed him the stuff.. the feeling while i was waiting for him, together with minn, was horribly the same as the other times.. the fast heartbeats and the softness of the leg.. which according to minn, is natural because she felt the same way last time about someone else..
so i hope it'll come to pass someday..
then when he came, and after he took the bag from him, he said
"hah.. so much?"
and his face was this
"can i not accept this"
kind of look.. it made me feel quite angry because the way he said it, sounded like as if he was super reluctant to accept the gift.. too bad i cant think on my feet as fast as i should. otherwise, i'd tell him
"dont want is it? then throw it away"
or something.. i mean really! he sounded super reluctant.. like as if his coming down to minn's area to get this useless thing from me was a complete waste of his time..
like.. THANKS A LOT!
-.-
so yes, i had a great time baking at the girlfriend's house, with a couple of batches of cookies that came out extremely burnt.. haha!!! the bad thing about her kitchen is that the windows arent big enough.. which made the kitchen smell quite badly of the burnt cookies.. haha!!
thank goodness my kitchen's all open so if i burn things, mummy wont really know.. haha!! that's the good thing about airy places.. haha!!
had actually planned to bake banana muffins tomorrow, which is sunday.. but my dear minn's sick.. poor thing..
and her boyfriend's so caring la.. make me jealous..
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i feel so sad!!
PEOPLE!!! FIND ME A BOYFRIEND!!!
haha!!! joking joking.. haha!!
what else have i done.. ooh yes! suki sushi buffet with huifen and frances.. haha!! frances can really eat and she's still so slim la! she has a freaking flat tummy!!! have you seen it? you guys should see it.. like REALLY!! i am jealous.. VERY JEALOUS indeed..
we got something else and frances got herself a nice cookie monster top.. haha!! which is really nice..eh!!! eh!!! which reminds me.. i want my presents!! who still owes me?!!
minn and ting
and
jo!!!anyone else?!
hello?!!! i'm desperate.. haha!!! i want a tee shirt with elmo!! or something really nice.. something i can wear!!! i want i want i want!!!
-pouts-
haha!!!
ooh.. just came back from a gathering with aunts and cousins and a uncle.. fong yi, chai yi and uncle jony.. haha!! family gatherings are LOVE!!!
they are major love.. haha.. played with a baby and audrey taught the baby how to stick his tongue out and roll it around.. haha!! super gross... but super funny too.. had such a good laugh.. haha!!
(:
i shall meet them soon when my holidays come.. very excited about it all.. haha!!!
okay.. what else.. ooh! saw this really nice necklace at this diva shop n cineleisure and it's 20bucks.. and i want it.. think shall go down one of these days to get it. it's so pretty la.. i want i want i want.. haha!!!
haha!!! have i talked a lot already? i think so.. there are actually many things more i wanted to talk about, to rant about, but suddenly, i cant remember.
ooh! this guy i'm working with, as in, he's in my group for one of my modules.. yuanzhi.. he's one year younger than i am and he's much fun to talk to.. then last night, was chatting with him on msn and then we came to the topic of Christianity.. he suddenly asked me
"are you a Christian"
and when i told him i was, he said
"i guessed correctly"
he wasnt very attentive because i ALWAYS wear my cross necklace.. haha!!
then when i asked him why he thought that i was, he said
"can tell.."
then he gave me a few characteristics of his few other Christian friends, saying how we have good grades, dont like to argue with people and are friendly.. he said these are the traits of Christians he's come to realise.. somehow, it made me feel very good, knowing that i'm portraying something good..
i think it's one of the best few compliments a Christian can get.. that people do actually guess that you are a Christian and all..
(:
dont worry people, i'm not one of those to go for younger guys no matter how good looking they are.. haha!!! i dont know.. i think most, NOT ALL, guys my age are just so childish, let alone someone younger..
for me, i'd prefer someone a little older and in my own preferences, he has gone through an operation and knows how to take care of his family. as in, family comes first then me.. wait.. no, God, family, then me.. yes..
of course, this is what ME wants.. not what God wants.. but He knows who is for me and is probably making me wait.. haha!! He is cool.. very cool indeed..
(:
God is love..
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haha..
ooh!!! chatted with shaowei the other day and i sent him one of my songs, by santana.santana ft alex band - why dont you and i
and know what he replied?
"yeah! why dont you and i?"
AH HAHA!!!
(:
oh yes, he made my day.. haha..
well, my heart is open now.. i'm not too bothered about the past and probably am moving on already..
of course, there are some things that i carry on, the memories will always stay but i'll just make sure i carry the nice ones along to remind me of the guy i once knew who was NICE and not just.. THAT..
it's better to remember nice things rather than carry the burden of remembering the horrid pain..
then again, i'll always remember he broke my heart.. haha!!! i dont dislike him or anything, i just.. will remember.. just will be in my memory kind of thing.. yup..
alrights.. i think i've said quite enough for now.. going to prepare for school soon.. ahh..
holidays hurry!!!
i want my blue sky holiday..
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vanessa