this was taken before my camp.. very funny i know.. haha.. i was trying to mimick the chocolate girl but i guess i'm not THAT cute and chocolatey enough.. haha!!!

this is taken before camp too, had sushi with shuwei and sexy aka frances. haha.. ooh! and that gross looking thing you see is a mixture of mayonnoise, light soy sauce and rice.. haha!!!

all the pictures taken on that day.. loads of crazy funny pictures of me and sexy.. we are so random, that i'm beginning to feel afraid of myself.. haha!!! ooh! there's this solo picture of me on the 3 row that makes me feel like as if i look like my aunt. carol's mum.. the resemblence is uncanny! haha..

here's camp! these are more of the 'scenery' pictures which doesnt look all that because i'm not a very good photographer. i take photos just for the sake of taking them.. haha!!! but the 2nd picture on the last row is the MOST BEAUTIFUL one i took.. look at the colours! so vivid! the first few ones, when i just stood there spending some quiet time with myself, i looked towards the hills ahead and the beautiful colours that painted the sky i just wanted to break down, thinking how God Himself made all these happen and yet still am willing to make time for me to love and look after me. it may not mean much to you my dear readers but somehow, in some big way, it kind of impacted me.. i mean i know already, that God cares about me, listening to me and answering my prayers that He deems is good for me.. but this kind of thing, seeing it in a bigger picture, just made me realise even more.. so yes, i was touched during camp in a beautifully wonderful way.

this is just a rose and a very pretty pink rose at it.. haha.. nothing very special other than the lovely shade of pink. haha..

this is what my angel gave me.. haha!! who turned out to be yvonne.. know the game 'angel and mortal'? yeah.. we played that.. actually, i didnt really know we were going to play this game so i didnt bring much. i did feel bad receiving so many cool things from her and not giving much back.. haha..

ahh.. my sister in Christ, jane, cousins and timo & rachel.. haha.. timo's shirt says 'chick magnet' and he's mimicking the guy on his shirt.. and there's rachel looking like she's attracted to him.. or so i think.. either way, it's really funny and cute.. haha!!!

and voila! pictures of the room! the long awaited pictures yes? haha!! the place is pretty cool with an entire area for us to place our clothes and a really cool bathroom with glass doors.. it's really really nice.. the pillows were a little too puffy though.. i had trouble keeping my head propped up at night and found myself lying flat on the bed.. haha!! and yeah. the place is really cool.. haha..

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so yeah. that's that for pictures.. definitely wished i had more group pictures.. see if i can get them from dominic.. so mainly there's these people in my group.

cornelius.

darren.

moses.

jeanette.

grace.

rachel.

wei-lyn.

cherie.

and me!

yeap.. we're considered the more mature batch because of our age.. haha!! it's better than saying 'older' batch isnt it? haha!! so yes, discussions were a little more in-depth and sharing was definitely more interesting because most of us have more experiences to share and thus allowing us to learn from each other.. really cool i must say..

the games were pretty disgusting from what i've heard.. i kind of skipped them you see.. haha!! well, they did involve running! which i'm not so inclined to do so.. haha.. so the more gross stuff i heard was that they drank each other's sweat and ate fried mealworms. haha.. cornelius drank moses' sweat! super gross i know.. haha..

so that was for games..

talks were pretty ok i guess..

food was pretty good too..

what else..

ooh! the last day! lots of praying and quite a number of us youths broke down while singing praise and praying for each other.. i just broke down after singing awhile and looking at other people pray for each other.. almost like i felt God was with us throughout the entire thing.. it was magical.. the interesting thing? the adults sat down, back at their seats and looked at us youths pray for each other.. it felt a little weird for awhile but i guess when God's working through each of us, nothing else really matters does it?

i thank those who have encouraged me greatly like cornelius, jane and jeanette and yes! rachel.. for praying for me and just being there beside me..

cornelius' prayer for me struck me in a way, showing me a side that i never really knew.. a point of view that i've never realised.. all these time, i thought that all the trials of personal things happening in my life, was in my point of view, that i was weak to make definite decisions.. but through his prayer, he saw something that i never really knew.. that the reason why i struggled to make the many decisions not to be with hongtat, was that i was actually rooted to God's word and that i was becoming stronger, becoming a woman after God's own heart.. if i wasnt, i'd probably be in and out of a relationship with hongtat and losing out on a better and more intimate relationship with God and i might even be losing out on a better relationship with someone God has planned for me.. after cornelius showed me this point of view, i broke..

it was almost like God Himself was assuring me, that i wasnt weak and stuff.. but that one day, which was this day, He would tell me something that i never knew.. i realised something throughout my walk with God. i realised, that most of the time, God talks to me through His word which is the bible and through people.. while some people get to hear God talk to them directly, mine's through His word and people.. amazing isnt it? take for example, remember the post about me counting the stars? it just happens that the main verse for our church's camp is this

"those who are wise will shine like the brightness of the heavens, and those who lead many to righteousness, like the stars for ever and ever."

daniel 12:3

how coincidental can that be? so i can relate stars to God, instead of simply myself.. how beautiful is God? i believe, that coincidences happens when God chooses to remain anonymous..

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i am touched by this year's camp and i'm pretty sure i'll be going for the next one.. pretty sure i am.. and i thank God that He made me go for this camp.. wonderful decision.. no regrets..

ooh! one more thing! before camp, my aunt asked me if i wanted to bunk with dora, this other youth who's way younger than i am, and i told my aunt that i didnt want to, without praying about it..

then it turned out, during the 'angel and mortal' game, that she was my mortal and i had to 'take care' of her.. haha!!! God was so punishing me i tell you.. He does have a sense of humour..

so yeah.. this was pretty much everything that happened the past few days, monday morning being the best..

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alrights my dear readers, i got to go now and pack my messy room.. haha. i cant imagine how dusty is it.. haha.. loves!

tree 63

blessed be Your name

blessed be Your name

in the land that is plentiful

where the streams of abundance flow

blessed be Your name

blessed be Your name

when i'm found in the desert place

though i walk through the wilderness

blessed be Your name

every blessing Your pour out

i turn back to praise

when the darknes closes in Lord

still i willsay

blessed be Your name

blessed be the name of the Lord

blessed be Your glorious name

blessed be Your name

when the sun's shining down on me

when all the world's all as it should be

blessed be Your name

blessed be Your name

on the road marked with suffering

though there's pain in the offering

blessed be Your name

every blessing Your pour out

i turn back to praise

when the darknes closes in Lord

still i will say

blessed be the name of the Lord

blessed be Your name

blessed be the name of the Lord

blessed be Your glorious nae

You give and take away

You give and take away

still my heart will choose to say

Lord blessed be Your name

vanessa