Friday, June 15, 2007

ahh... i think i've got major gas problems.. haha!!! keep having these sudden stomachaches which leads to me farting then running to the toilet hoping that i didnt crap on my undies again.. haha!! it's scary okay! to see that your insides doesnt have control over your crap.. not funny..
haha!!!
okay, how ironic, me telling you that it's not funny and here i am laughing.. haha!!!
(:
anyways, God has been showing me things.. for today at least..
went for doctor's appointment and was reading this book called "taming the tiger" and at the end, i came across this
"God is a God of second chances"
it kind of reminded me of myself, of how i was, am and probably will be repeating my mistakes over and over again.. look at the sentence again.. go ahead and read it out aloud.
"God is a God of second chances"
realise something? it isnt
"God is a God of second chance"
but it is
"God is a God of second chanceS"
with an 's'
doesnt it just amaze you? i mean take for example you guys with boyfriends or girlfriends (but i think there's only the boyfriends issue here)
how often can you forgive your lover for what he (or she) has done over and over and over again and again and again.. to a certain point, all you want to do is give up isnt it? although there might be the few special cases where the love is so so strong that everything just melts away.. which in modern text, is really difficult and UBER rare.. there's hardly any forgiveness around here.. what we normally do, it probably keep it in, bottle it up and one day, when the bottle's turtleneck-ed, the pent-up emotions and feelings will just pour out.. i cant tell you to forgive, to force you to forgive someone because i have problems with that too.. like what everyone says, i have to do what i preach..
erm.. is that what they say? oh wells, it shouldnt be far from that i guess.. right? haha.. correct me if i'm wrong..

saturday already isnt it.. how one week has gone by so fast.. i want to be at camp when everything seems to pass by rather moderately and the pace is just right for me.. the way i want time to always pass by when i'm having fun..
):
i dont like having nothing to do at home.. of course there's the packing of my room but i'm trying to leave that for the last minute or something.. haha!!!
and i realised that the next holidays is in around 3 months time.. which is SO FREAKISHLY LONG!!!
-.-
alrights.. havent got much again, meeting people next week for gatherings and meetings..
monday - IS meeting, lunch with sexy and felix.
ooh! peggy and huifen!!! want to come along?! tag me alrights?!

tuesday - nothing i think, unless buddy wants to go out..

wednesday - i cant remember already.. i think i'm meeting minn..

oh wells.. i got to go now.. stomachache again.. loves

vanessa