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okay.. first thing..

(pictures tomorrow because Sexy isnt online to send me the ones we took using her phone)

the weather was really good nearly through out the entire day.. thank God!

then in ebusiness class, wilson said hi to me on msn and we chatted.. know something? everytime we chat, there's always the issue of boy-girl relationships involved.. it will ALWAYS lead to that.. weird i know.. so we chatted and he asked me if my broken heart was mended..
p.s. it has been QUITE some time since we last chatted.. haha!!! then i asked about the workplace, about the people and stuff.. then i asked if he has a blog then when he said no, i said he was not hip enough and that he should get a blog to be hipper.. then he said he might get it when he reaches 40.. then i just HAD to ask if he's got a girlfriend yet.. then suddenly, out of nowhere, he said

(for convenience's sake, the words in black are his replies and the ones in pink.. you know. haha!)

haha!!! how amusing was that?! i was really amused at him really, for actually going to 'calculate' the horoscope thing although i dont really believe in such things.. they MIGHT help know people better but i'm not one to believe in looking at these things to the future..

then the day was pretty good, saw 2 dear friends from secondary school and primary school.. wuahuan and jiunyuen..

saw wuahuan on the bus but we didnt really say hi, just made A WHOLE LOT of eye contact.. haha!!! neither of us made the move to say anything or do anything.. i was trying not to laugh.. haha!!!

then when i went to bishan's sistic to collect christinaaguilera's tickets then i saw this whole group of guys in front, then found out that they were buying the wwf wrestling tickets.. then when they stepped aside, i saw a rather familiar face.. haha!!! i looked harder then TA-DA!!! saw jiunyuen.. didnt say hi nor did we make any eye contact because i wasnt exactly sure it it was him so i didnt want to call out.. so after collecting the tickets, i text-ed him and found out that it was really him.. haha!!! said i'd poke him the next time i see him.. haha!!! today indeed has been good..

about relationships.. although there are standards we all have set for our partner, i guess there are the special moments and special people who actually do not really end up following what expectations they have made.. so although i do wish my future husband will have a car to ferry me around and all, in the end, it might not come true and i might even have to take public transport for the rest of my life.. maybe we want to marry rich handsome men and live in the lap of luxury for the rest of our lives.. but how often do such things happen really?

my take in relationships is that no matter what i do, i believe God knows what is best and up to a certain point of my life, i leave it up to Him to determine the route i should take.. i still am on the learning path of giving Him my all.. i have commitment issues i think..

i dont want to go through life with tons of boyfriends who betray my love and make me waste the precious years of life..

i dont want to kiss tons of guys just so i can perfect my kiss for the one who will be with me for the rest of my life..

i dont want to hold tons of guys hands just so i can feel the warmth of being in one..

like what drewbarrymore said in her character as josiegeller in the movie "never been kissed"

"that thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realise that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest if your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cy because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time"

dont we all want to have the first love that will last till the end of our time?

which reminds me.. another sexy guy to ogle at for now.. haha!!!

currently feeling REALLY REALLY tired.. think i shall skip homework and go straight to bed.. haha.. thank goodness lessons starts at 1200 in the afternoon so i can get a little more shut-eye.. my sincere apologies to my dear minn.. haha.. saturday.. we shall swim.. haha..

alrights, here's another song..

hillsong united

from the inside out

a thousand time i've failed

still Your mercy remains

and should i stumble again

i'm caught in Your grace

everlasting

Your light will shine when all else fades

never ending

Your glory goes beyong all fame

Your will above all else

my purpose remains

the art of losing myself

in bringing You praise

everlasting

Your light will shine when all else fades

never ending

Your glory goes beyong all fame

in my heart and my soul

Lord i give You control

consume me from the inside out

Lord let justice and praise

become my embrace

to love You from the inside out

everlasting

Your light will shine when all else fades

never ending

Your glory goes beyong all fame

and the cry of my heart

is to bring You praise

from the inside out

Lord my soul cries out

vanessa