in the end, i went out,to giant at turf city.. took the bus down and walked around giant.. haha.. i felt such like a big girl..

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then i brought along a notebook, recording down all the things i bought and the prices of whatever i bought.. you know, it's actually a very good habit, to do a thing like this.. you may think that 'oh gosh! such a cheapo!' but then again, it helps you at the same time, to control what you buy.. i initially wanted to get like loads of potato chips.. then i realised that i dont have the need for it and i might be able to get something cheaper elsewhere, which made me not buying extra things.. aint that good? i sure think so.. anyways, after buying, i realised that the peach tea pokke bottle that i bought was leaking..

-sulks-

yeah.. it was leaking.. it wasnt that bad so i'm not complaining.. haha.. 1.50 only anyway..

so that was friday.. stayed home the entire day on saturday watching movies on my laptop and sewing a bookmark i bought from chinatown the other day when i went to meet joyce... haha.. it's done and i dont know how to laminate it because the threads i used were too thick.. see see! i think it's really pretty.. haha.. giving it to mummy.. shall get another one sometime soon after my holidays start then i can make one for myself.. and maybe another one for a future boyfriend.. haha!!! it's such a nice thing to do.. AYE! IDEA COPYRIGHTED.. haha!!!

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okay, here it is..

i know the 'V' is kind of weird because of the size.. haha!!! i removed a couple of squares and make it smaller because i was running out of yellow thread.. haha!!! too lazy to get new threads just for the 'E'.. i mean i am only going to use it just once anyway..

ooh! here's another random picture..

haha!!! i know what you are thinking..

MAD GIRL!!!

oh wells.. random moments are the ones that brings you through the days.. shawn made me do this! actually, i shoved the other ends at the top of my mouth and said i look like dracula.. then he remembered the walrus thing we saw on 'freaky friday' the movie.. haha.. thus the walrus look.. haha!!! what randomness.. haha!!!

so anyways, sunday.. went to church and attend adult bible class on the topic of homosexuality.. interesting views that i pretty much know about already but there are some things that i still dont really get.. and there wasnt enough time for question and answer.. oh wells.. i dont know if i would really have the guts to ask anyway..

came home and had these really horrible headaches.. i keep having them recently for some reason..

i think something in me is changing.. i get angry at people really fast, for things they do.. i dont want anything to do with them and sometimes, i wish they'd just leave me alone.. like totally shut up...

frankly, i have a thing about some of the youth in my church.. even the youth pastor.. nearly all have this horrible irritating habit of saying 'hello' like this

'HELLOS!!!'

WITH THE FREAKING 'S' BEHIND.. AND IT FREAKING GETS ON MY NERVES..

like stop it already for goodness sake.. maybe they think it's hip but it's already so freaking old and it just doesnt cool or fun to do it anymore.. once in awhile is just fine but they do it EVERY SINGLE TIME!

ARGH!!!

anyways.. i think it might just be the pms.. i think it's coming... crap everything that pisses me off..

-sulks-

things arent going so well right now and i think i'm becoming further away from God.. from all that i've been through to make my faith strong.. things seem like they're just not going the way it should be, that i'm just making more mistakes.. i try sometimes, but something else takes over and my tries become futile.. it's almost like giving in to what i know it's wrong and just let the wrong take over.. it's tiring to try to do the right things.. i sometimes just want to give it all up.. just let the world pass me by.. it feels tiring to just be alive sometimes.. i, need to spend more time with God.. but when everything tumbles down, i dont know what to do..

am i backsliding? am i losing hope? am i losing faith?

butterfly boucher

never leave your heart alone

and it's open

for distraction

you found all the words you need

well i found nothing

i just grumble

cause i dont know what i feel

the moral to the story goes

never leave your heart alone

never leave your heart... alone

run for shelter

an umbrella

fights the rain but not the wind

and i'd be silly

so start preaching

cause i dont know which point to make

the moral to the story goes

never leave your heart

in a box

locked up

with cold cold ice

never leave your heart

never leave your heart... alone

am i frozen

but it's summer

is that rain or is that me

yes i'm melting

please be happy

one day soon

we might just swim

the moral to the story goes

never leave your heart

in a box

locked up

with cold cold ice

never leave your heart

never leave your heart

never leave your heart... alone

vanessa