Saturday, August 4, 2007
haha.. peggy..
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are you the only one who reads my blog now? anyways, this week has been pretty good with all the group outings and stuff.. there's a confirmation of the chalet, that we REALLY ARE having one this year.. in september/october.. and i cant wait.. really..
and! i might have a job! just hopefully, i'll get it and then will be able to work.. if not, i'll settle for other kinds of jobs.. i pretty much like to have an office job really.. getting all dressed up formally and all.. i think it's so feminine.. i know i am weird when most girls would like to be dressing down and sexy, show this cleavage, show those boobs.. you know.. i like looking smart and covered up.. of course there are the times when i'm feeling a little wilder then i'd want to wear just a spaghetti top.. which is really rare frankly.. yeap..
anyways, have been lazing around the entire day when i'm supposed to be studying for my ebusiness paper.. i mean although it is an open-book paper, there is the case study which i might be able to try and come up with random questions and answers to make my life easier.. which i didnt do! which is definitely not good..
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i NEED to get down to work.. which i think, i wouldnt be doing.. haha.. oh wells..
you know how some people say some others are two faced and all? frankly, i personally dont agree.. show me one youth who isnt two-faced.. i dont think you'd be able to show me one.. i mean people are flawed.. no matter how much you try to be perfect, there's always a time when something will go wrong.. you are bound to backstab someone sometime.. take me for example.. as much as i try to be friends with everyone i know, there are times when all i want to do is just slap that person and just tell he/she to shut the crap up because he/she is getting on my nerves.. we are all flawed.. it's only a matter of time when we blow up.. yes, even the friendliest person will have their atomic-bomb moment.. i think the only person who i know so far, who is really one-sided is huifen. i mean from what i've known since year1 until now.. she hasnt blown up, hasnt said anything horrible about anyone behind their back.. i dont know about her past neither would i want to intrude.. just saying from what i've seen..
it's just a part of living really.. we are all really just people trying to get along in life.. and we are all two-faced.. hey, maybe huifen has a different set of personalities when at home.. no one knows.. i know i have.. i'm a different person when i'm with my friends, with my family, with people of higher authority like adults and stuff.. you can practically say i'm multi-faced.. it would be hard to live without such faces.. all the masks we put on helps us with our daily life.. i really think so.. i'm sure there are people who disagree but hey, my blog, my opinion.. just for reading pleasure yes?
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anyways, here's a song i'm currently into because of some issues in my life..
about guys, although the modern society says we should all go out, have flings and create a long list of "i went out with so-and-so from when-to-when", i've finally come to realise that in Christianity, dating leads to courtship and then to marriage.. courtship in Christian terms, would lead to marriage.. which is a serious relationship.. i was reading this article timo showed me a couple of months back when i was dealing with the issue of trying to deal with the hongtat thing..
so i might actually believe that i can go into one single relationship that might last forever.. that i wont have to suffer the pains of falling out of love and all those.. remember, i said "MIGHT" not "WILL" so there's a difference.. anyways, below is the link where you might want to read.. it's really interesting.. i would highly recommend it..
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Biblical Relationshipsloves!
everlife
angels cry
all the world is but a child
screaming over all your words
no one hears your pain
they're way too busy for concern
and the days become weeks
and the months turn into years
you gotta know by now
that only God sees all those tears
when you cry cause it hurts
doesnt mean that you're not heard
because aloud in heaven
the angels cry with you
when you shout about the way you feel
one thousand lies that dont reveal
the true beginning of the end
you can make a line from here to mars
of those with broken dreams and scars
there will never be a fix outside a Saviour
when you cry cause it hurts
doesnt mean that you're not heard
because aloud in heaven
the angels cry with you
you can say they havent known of hate or desire to retaliate
there must be someone, someone we can blame
but its hard to put the anger down
and hear from God not a sound
and find a place to heal the unforgiving
when you break and you yell
and there's no one left to tell
you have the tears of heaven
and His grace will come to you
when you cry cause it hurts
doesnt mean that you're not heard
because aloud in heaven
the angels cry with you
vanessa
