Sunday, September 9, 2007

what a hectic week, full of religion talk and things related to religion.. about Christianity.. mostly about Christianity.. actually, ALL about Christianity..
why do we have so many questions that hinder us from getting to where God wants us to be? why is there trials and tribulations that we have to go through, the pain, the hurt and all those in between to bring us to where and what God wants us to be..

there's a sudden onslaught of relationship issues.. the same kind of issues.. Christian, non-Christian.. it's difficult for me to take a stand because i believe that each one of us have different paths to take in life.. and that the bible is pretty much a guideline for us, to help us and strengthen us in our way towards God, towards our ultimate goal of being together with God.
someone asked me once, if i thought that being a Christian has its many limitations.. and frankly, i agree.. the ideal partner is a Christian, the words that come out of my mouth should not be filled with filth, but rather, with love and kindness.. the actions i do, portray my religion..
i look around me and when i try to count the number of Christian guy friends i have that i actually can talk to, i think i can count them with my fingers.. it's really sad.. why did God set these guidelines that makes us think so much? why do we find ways to contradict ourselves? why do we have to make decisions that makes us hurt for this period of time.. that it makes us wonder if we are actually grounded in our faith? that makes us question the things that we believe in?
i know the God i believe in is real, that He exists in my life.. but the only problem is getting to the point where i can hear God talking to me, telling me what i should do when i face problems in my life that i need His help in... it so difficult to wait, patiently, to just trust that God will bring something or someone better for me.. i know that patience is a virtue.. but then it dawns on me what if this path i take, might be the one God wants me to take? and if i dont take it, what would happen? would i have to wait again for a period of time before God intervenes and then what if i make the same mistake of not rising to the occasion? the point i'm trying to put across is this..
"should we enter known territories, despite knowing that it might after all, be wrong.. although not entirely unchartered territories, it is somehow unchartered because the lines become blurred with each and every person's experiences that we come to know and learn of."
so with so many distractions in our lives, and with all that is happening, how are we to know what God is telling us other than through dreams, signs and such? but then again, with all that has happened, after listening to so many accounts of the different things that happened to others who are or was, in a similar situation as yours, how do you know what God wants for you when you take all these experiences that we've just learnt of, as signs? of course, there's the point where we arrive at this junction where we would just pick out things we want to hear.. which was what i did in the past.. in the long ago past.. which i know, is wrong. and thank God that hongtat and i didnt start because it would have been seriously terrible if i knew something like that happened.. gosh..

why cant everyone be Christians? why are we given the choice of freewill? how will we ever know?

vanessa