Monday, December 3, 2007

okay, since the secret is no longer a secret, here's a picture of me.. haha!!
so yes, i cut my hair.. oh darn.. you cant see my short hair here.. haha!!! hmm.. let me get another one..
yeap! it's SHORT SHORT SHORT!!!
(:
i know what minn's going to say when she sees this, (when she comes back from her trip to china with her BOYFRIEND)
haha..
she's going to say
"WHAT? EVEN SHORTER?! WHY EVERYTIME YOU CUT, IT BECOMES SHORTER AND SHORTER?"
and like what i told my dad, siying said,
"shorter and shorter then the next time you shave head"
haha!! and maybe, JUST MAYBE, i might do that..
they say you can see if a man really loves a woman when she shaves off all her hair and he can see her beauty.
(:
maybe i'm going to find my match that way.. haha!!!
just joking..
so far, most people say that i look like a guy... so i think i'm going to wear more girlish clothes then, accentuate my "curves" (if i have any) and prove that i am pure woman and very straight..
and the reason for cutting, is just so that i'll be different.. not like everyone else around who has that bob haircut.. so victoria beckham, so not me.. so yes..
(:

looking forward to the wedding this weekend and the holiday in malaysia.. not looking forward to the handing in of assignments by this week and the common "tests" next week..
i STILL dont get why they call it tests when we all know it's practically the same as EXAMINATIONS..
really.. is it all that fun mixing words and such?
my gosh..

so.. sunday was pretty sombre.. auntie cathy came up to share about her loss, her son, stephen loh.
there's this excerpt she took from a first toa payoh secondary school students that read
"i still have your phone number. if i call, will you answer? i have many things to tell you"
when she read it, she broke down..
i dont know if i could be that strong, to share something to personal, when feelings are so fresh.. but i guess, the comfort of the Lord is strong and auntie cathy's learning to lean on Him.
(:

alrights.. i got to go, rush more work, proposals and assignments, get all my notes in order. haha.. loves!


the church is quiet as i walk
i try to hide my eyes underneath the shades of my hat
the atmosphere is so sombre
can i make this through
Lord help me
i see their sympathetic eyes
they feel a part of my pain
i speak and the words are foreign to me
thank You Lord for putting them there
my hands move the piece of weathered paper
folded and unfolded so many times
i start reading this simple note
simple but truthful and full of feelings
help me keep my emotions in check Lord
help me be strong
"if i call, will you answer" was what it said
and it ran through my mind and i asked my beloved lost son the same question
will you answer
the memories of you come flashing past my head
images of you and me together refreshed in the front of my eyes
my feelings are too raw Lord
my eyes sting, my nose blocks
my core is breaking, i cant seem to walk
i reach for You Lord, can You reassure me
comfort me
Lord, just help me.


vanessa