Saturday, December 22, 2007

okay.
here's some stuff you guys missed out this week on my life.
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after that primary school class outing, i went out with my girlfriends, minn and daphne.
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went to vivo again! but this time, we had a simpler fare. went for longjohnsilver's and we had such a ball there, i think we pretty much scared the people around us because we were laughing so loudly, and so much! actually i think i kind of scared myself. haha!!!
so. after that, we walked around nearly the entire shopping mall cause our dear daphne hasnt really been there so yes. haha..
and after a whole load of talking and laughing and stuff, we went our separate ways.
i met with mum who was making my day really bad.
then! at far east plaza, someone called me and i didnt pick up the phone. when i texted the missed-call person back, it was felix who replied. haha!!!
he said he could see me and then i was wondering if he was working.
then!
i turned my head and.. TA-DA!!!
there in the corner, was this nearly bald, rounded looking guy smirking at me.
the first thought in my mind
"why the hell is this guy smirking so cheekily at me"
then after awhile
"OH! FELIX!!! ARMY!!!"
haha!!
i was so amused! so. i continued eating with mum cause i couldnt really be like
"SHIT MAN! YOU'RE IN THE ARMY ALREADY? WHAT THE HELL! NEVER TELL US?"
kind of thing. you know. mothers.
whatever.
haha... so i waited until mum went off, then he came over and chatted awhile, then he and his 2 other female friends went off.. haha..
then, afterwards, went home.

the next day, stayed home then mum made me go out with her. she keeps wanting to buy crumpler bags for my twin cousins.
(and she got it today)
spent the entire evening black faced out with her because i didnt want to go out and the only reason why i was out was because she didnt know how to get to the shop and wanted me to show her.

then! yesterday!
went out with frances for sushi lunch.
i tell you! the bus was so freaking slow that i nearly died inside.
-.-
like, there was this MASSIVE jam at orchard road. the road just outside far east. i dont see what really caused the jam other than stupid drivers who chose to drive this way during peak hours. i mean really!
FIND ANOTHER WAY DUMB DUMB!
so.
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i met her and we headed straight for food. the service at suki sushi is really becoming pretty bad. the one at cineleisure. we had tons of fun, tons of food.. OOH! AND 60+ CREAM PUFFS!!!
i tell you, those little puffs are such cute little sweet things that i wish they had a buffet JUST FOR cream puffs. like say..
"$10 flat for cream puffs buffet"
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that! i would definitely go without any hesitation. i mean really. it's so nice!!! i ate until my stomach was really filled cause i could feel the coolness of the puffs at the top of my stomach. and boy was my stomach big. haha!!!
i often say, after sushi, i can actually imagine myself being 3 or 4 months pregnant.. haha!!! it's pretty scary considering this is just food and the weight of food itself was a wee bit straining on my back. imagine a baby inside. man! i'd freak out. i think?
haha!!!
so.. we had tons of laugh, a little girltalk and tons of food.
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she's a self proclaimed "baby octopus lover"
haha!!! she ate like 2 saucers of it. haha.
me?
i had my JELLYFISH!
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i always liked it. but i started having this VENGENCE for them since i got stung by one a couple of years back in bintan while waddling in the clear sea waters.. it was so hot, and itchy and painful. so yes, i have a vengence. haha!!! EAT JELLYFISH!
the same way everyone wanted to eat stingray when steve irwin was killed by one of them.

so. after walking around wisma atria with frances, met with minn and yensoon (her boyfriend) and the both of them had dinner.
then! we met with elyse and ting.
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i'd say, we havent changed much since secondary school days.
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went for dinner at a halal place at far east. tons of laughter as usual and just reminiscing the old days.
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then! ting and elyse went home while i accompanied minn to meet yensoon at bishan to get something. i bought my concealer and then after which, she bought a b*****. haha!!!
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so sexy! woot woot!
then! we went home without meeting yensoon because i was too lazy to wait for 40minutes with her and so, psycho-ed minn to tell yensoon to meet another day. haha!!! i felt so bad.

so! then there's today!
met ting for a short lunch and met bird and xunqi, a guy from her class.
went for the dialogue session at hollandv. the youths were very friendly and i guess, it makes me more comfortable with bring my friends over instead of wondering
"oh no. what if they dont talk to her"
and stuff.
so! andre came over and we sat at the same table with jane and sze wei. they were really good hosts.
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very friendly..

so. the talk was really good and really thought-provoking.
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ting said she'll be interested in going again!
next time, minn minn! you're coming! and YUAN
HAHA!!!
woot woot.. then you can shoot all questions you want. haha!!!

so. came home and mum asked if i wanted to go get the bag with her.
and i refused.
firstly. i'm having cramps.
then! why would i want to waste my money, to go out and buy something for someone else and then come home. no.
the thing that pissed me is the part where the first few people who come into mind when getting presents are shawn, her sister and her twin sons.
i mean, where do i stand?
i asked her last time, telling her that i want the bag. and her reply?
"you got money, buy it yourself la"
and i was like
"okay, fine"
and now, she's all like
"i want to get the bags for them"
and i'm like
"whatever"

and when she asked me if i wanted to even see what colour bag she bought for them and i said no, she said i was selfish.
what the hell
why i am selfish. let's see.
i have to share my mum with my cousins
i have to share my dad with some bitch/bitches
what else?
oh yes! but i dont want to go into details. forget it.
so yes. call me selfish? am i justified in being selfish? i do believe i am.
jealous? duh!

i believe my emotions are justified because i never had someone to myself. ALL TO MYSELF.
so dont call me selfish because i want things for myself since i never really did.
i mean really. who likes sharing EVERYTHING with people? i dont like to. there are occasions when i'm willing to share but not to this personal extent. the only things that i have, that i do not need to share are my material things. say. bra. phone. and stuff.
the pain of knowing that you dont really come first is just. unbelievably painful. you just, dont know how to put them into words. the only single word that you can use is
"pain"
that's the only word.

call me childish, but i dont care since i dont have a family to lean to when i have problems.
just being around them makes me feel so. dirty and uncared for.
and i cant be bothered. i'm getting the bloody bag for myself. let's see if she'll feel the least bit guilty.
how screwed up are they.

anyways! before i go!
here's a song i have been hooked on for quite some time already. i know it had been on the airwaves for quite some already. but what the heck.
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onerepublic
apologize

i'm hangin on your rope
got me ten feet off the ground
and i'm hearin' what you say
but i just cant make a sound
you tell me that you need me
then you go and cut me down
but wait
you tell me that you're sorry
didnt think i'd turn around
and say

that it's too late to apologize
it's too late
i said it's too late to apologize
it's too late
yeah

i'd take another chance
take a fall, take a shot for you
i need you like a heart needs a beat
but it's nothing new
i loved you with a fire red
now it's turning blue
and you say
sorry, you're not the angel
heaven let me think was you
but i'm afraid

it's too late to apologize
it's too late
i said it's too late to apologize
it's too late

it's too late to apologize
it's too late
i said it's too late to apologize
it's too late

it's too late to apologize
i said it's too late to apologize
i'm holding on your hope
got me ten feet off the ground

vanessa