but now that i've time to sit down and stare at the black box for nearly 4 hours straight, i kind of feel like going to work, and doing something because this sudden slack-xation makes my migraines come back and it's partly killing me now because it's squishing the right side of my brain. so i guess i'll be popping panadols the next couple of days.

-sulks-

so anyways, today was a pretty funny day.. aint it frances? haha!!!

the someone who once said i was "sweet-looking" took the same exam as me. (well, we ARE in the same class arent we) so i before the paper, when we just stepped into the examination hall, i was hoping that we wont be seated near each other cause he'd cause disruption to my attention. (not saying that i'm so interested in him that i'll keep looking at him throughout my paper). so when i found my row and seat, i sat down and i realised, that he was on the row beside me, 4 seats forward.
frances, that dear girl, turned back to look me and giggled and i returned the giggle. the next thing i knew, we exchanged glances for a split second. whoa! i felt blood rising to my head cause i think he saw me giggling.

crap.

and when he turned back, frances, that DEAR DEAR girl, turned back and did a silent laugh-out-loud. and so did i..

after i completed my paper, i realised that he wasnt at his seat. so i took my bag, and slowly, i opened the examination hall's door and immediately, for no particular reason, i looked downwards and spotted his shorts and very quickly, i walked towards frances where i spotted her from inside the examination hall without looking up.

i felt so mean!!! haha.. but somehow, at the same time, it felt really good to be noticed once more, after all the things that i've been through. to be noticed and that my presence was appreciated by someone who i never really knew. it's almost like going back to a certain period of time.. it's exhilarating at times frankly speaking.. to walk past him.. haha!! i know, i'm weird.

so i talked to someone the night before about my criteria for a boyfriend/husband.

i told her what the SOME guys in my class say about my values. and they think my values are impossible.

how can the following values be impossible with God?

1. Christian

2. no sex before marriage

3. no touching of the nether private regions including the boobs.

4. respect for each other

but actually by being a Christian, he should have the values that i'm looking for. i'm not asking him to be the richest guy on earth, to own a bmw or a mercs to drive me around, to live in a big mansion and to just let me lead a relaxed jetsetting life. how are these values and criteria wrong and impossible?

i guess, the 3 guys who have made fun of my criteria, dont mind getting married to a prostitute who has had countless sex experiences.. i really think it's ok with them you know, considering that fact that are pretty sexually orientated too.

alrights, mugging period officially over, which i will miss cause i had so much fun with frances and enshao. man that enshao! crap-talker. loads of it.. haha.. hilarious. he's always talking about his girlfriend, of all the great time they've spent together and the stuff they talk about. those two.. very cute. i hope they last long long. haha!!

i'll probably be really packed these holidays with tutoring and packing of room and going to the hospital to visit a friend who's going to go for the same operation as i did. oh! i found an old picture of my back. i dont know if you guys have seen it but i know the long-timers certainly did.

so yes, my still slightly curved back, with the 2 titanium rods. interesting isnt it? never fails to amaze me that those 2 things are in my back, keeping me straight. haha!!

(:

alrights, i got to go take a crap and bathe! probably head down to toyogo one of these days to get plastic roller boxers to store all my bags and stuff.. haha!!! then to ikea to get more nice things to decorate my room with! i'll be really cool!! haha!! loves!!!

vanessa