Wednesday, April 2, 2008

i felt a need to blog a post.
but i realised, i have nothing to talk about..
-.-
but anyways, i thought maybe i should say something..

when we let ourselves fall into a relationship with someone, most of us, would give our all into it..
we'll spend huge amounts of money just to please our loved one..
flowers, chocolates, expensive dinners and all that..
but when it comes to God, it's so difficult to fork out the exact same amount when we give offerings..

when we pick up a book that we felt was interesting, we'd get caught up in all the splendor of the beauty of the words that help create this book.
yet, when it comes to reading the bible, we cant keep our noses stuck into a page, we cant keep holding onto the book, carrying it everywhere we go, reading it anytime we can.

just a while ago, i finally started on a book that edmund gave me after my operation..
the thing that struck me was the fact that God wants us to love Him.
then the author, stormie omartian, continued, saying how when we are in love with someone, you'd think about him/her every free second, every free minute.. how we'd always have the person in mind throughout the entire day..
and that's how we should treat God.
to think of Him every free time that we have, because that, is love.
isnt it?

it never really occured to me that a part of loving God would be having Him on my mind the way someone else used to be on mine.
so i'm learning, to seek God, to let Him dominate most of my thoughts throughout my day..
i know, it sounds weird to talk about religion this way.
but then again, Christianity isnt really a religion isnt it?
i've heard time and time again, Christianity is a relationship. a relationship with God, with Jesus, with the Holy Spirit.
so speaking with Christianity in mind, as a relationship, that would make perfect sense. wouldnt it?
and amazingly, i never saw this coming.. the entire part after "i know it sounds weird..."
haha.. quiet time spent thinking about God does wonders to one's mind.. amazing..
(:

on an ending note,
i've been reminded of hongtat yesterday when having dinner with my cousins at bukit panjang plaza. there was this guy, who had the exact same features.
the drooping eyes, the nose, the lips. even the way the guy looked up from his phone to survey his surroundings.. it was so similar, i was caught off-guard.
but it was then, too, i realised, i had missed him, as a long time friend and at the same time, that i've gotten over him.. because there werent any heart-racing moments where i'd lose the ability to breathe normally.
and another thing, that i've been pretty happy of late, chatting late into the night..
the things said seemed to suggest something but at the same time, nothing was said or established so i'm pretty happy with the way things are, for i've been smiling at the screen of my laptop once more..
(:

vanessa