Tuesday, May 13, 2008

so people people..
peggy's birthday was on mother's day. had a great time with her, she getting all high during lunch and as usual, me talking the most. haha!!!
went to nydc for lunch, and got her an apple crumble pie cause she's not a big fan of chocolates and cheese cakes. which sadly, is what nydc is well-known for.
-sulks-
haha!!! but i guess she will get to try them some day.. bring her ang moh boyfriend/husband..
(inside joke)
haha!!!
was a seriously cool time with the girls, frances couldnt make it cause it was too last minute. next time then!

so after peggy left, she sms-ed us like, A MILLION TIMES, thanking us for the great time she had.
(:
peggy, we get it after 2 times.. you didnt have to say it more than 5 times you know. haha!!!
we.can.understand.english.
haha!!!

so that was sunday.
oh. didnt get to celebrate mother's day but will be bringing mum out for dinner sometime this week when both of them are free.

know what? i've got nothing to blog about!
-sulks-
other than the fact that work is making me really tired, it's been pretty good i'd have to say.. there isnt too much office politics going around.. i just.. dont really like the boss' attitude sometimes. he's like, very proud of himself and stuff you know.. nose stuck up in the air kind?
yeah.
i know i havent been blogging much these couple of weeks since my attachment started..
maybe one of the reasons is me being all so tired the moment i get home and also the fact that i've been facing the same laptop screen everyday from 9.45am to about 6.30pm with short breaks in between, causes me to feel this boredness with coming online and blogging about the mundane things of my life.
as much as i would love to talk about the things of this life, about heartaches, love, pain, joy and whats not, i just dont feel the same passion as i used to have..
the loyal readers who have followed me since the few times of my blogging practise can tell you how much my blogging habits have changed from time to time.
when i was "in a relationship", i was so filled with emotions. i could go on and on about silly things like sunflowers lighting up your day and how even the sun glows so beautifully, and then there are those about the sun shying away from you as your heart breaks and the tears trickle down your scorned cheeks..
i feel the urge to write, but i dont know what i want to write about.
i cant find a muse to write about, to write for.
i've tried to write about God, of how His love changes me and how i know i can be at peace with myself cause He loves me no matter what happens.
but as long as i try to think, as i sit in my chair and think about what words rhyme, nothing comes to mind.
i know i can use an excuse to say that God is indescribable.
yet at the same time, i am ashamed that i cant come up with something that will glorify Him for all the wonderful things He has done in my life.
you could actually say i'm currently backsliding in my relationship with God.
i havent been reading my bible, havent been praying much.
and He hasnt been on my mind much these couple of weeks since attachment started. i'm practically another person.
nearly bipolar. haha. (not supposed to be funny)
i'm almost in those emo-ish state of mind where i dont feel like doing anything but sulk at life and everything in it.

of course, there are times when i see a ray of light and i get really high cause i guess i needed the energy boost.
frankly, it feels almost like i'm not feeling much.
no extreme joy or extreme sadness.
maybe there's something wrong. or i'm just lacking sleep.
oh wells.

got to go anyway, i need to catch up on my beauty sleep.
oh. did i mention that i saw shaowei, my primary school friend on the bus?
nice itsy bisty chat i had with him.
he's still as much as the joker as he was in primary school. just a lot better looking. haha..
alrights. loves!!!

vanessa