Wednesday, June 25, 2008

i feel so much resentment towards nearly everyone.
so much.
just. too much..
so much hate.
so much despair.
so much pain.
so much anger.
just so much of all these. and i cant wait to let it go.

i'm trying to find my way back to You yet all these stupid shit gets in my way.
i cant hear Your soft whispering in the loudness of the quiet room.
i cant feel You in the stillness of my mind.
i cant do anything, to make these things go away.
i cant let go.
still, i hope You'll still love me for the monster i've become.
still, i hope You'll reach for me to change the way i am.
still, i hope You'll make me hear with all that is ringing in my ears.
still, i hope.


lifehouse
broken

the broken clock is a comfort
it helps me sleep tonight.
maybe it can stop tomorrow
from stealing all my time.
and i am here still waiting
though i have my doubts.
i am damaged at best
like You've already figured out.

i'm falling apart
i'm barely breathing.
with a broken heart
that's still beating.
in the pain
there is healing.
in Your name
i find meaning.
so i'm holding on
i'm barely holding on to You.

the broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head.
i tried my best to be guarded
i'm an open book instead.
and i still see Your reflection
inside of my eyes
that are looking for purpose
they're still looking for life.

i'm falling apart
i'm barely breathing.
with a broken heart
that's still beating.
in the pain
there is healing.
in Your name
i find meaning.
so i'm holding on
i'm barely holding on to You.

i'm hanging on another day
just to see what, You will throw my way
and i'm hanging on, to the words You say
You said that i will, will be okay
the broken light on the freeway
left me here alone
i may have lost my way now
but i havent forgotten my way home

i'm falling apart
i'm barely breathing
with a broken heart
that's still beating
in the pain
there is healing
in Your name
i find meaning
so i'm holding on
barely holding on to You
barely holding on to You


vanessa