Friday, June 20, 2008

i watched the last episode of House - Wilson's Heart.
i felt wilson's pain as he watched his wife die right in front of him.
imagine, one day, you got into an accident and when you wake up, you found out that you're only awakened just to say goodbye because people wanted to say their farewells.
i dont know what i'd do if i were in such a situation.
would i call up each and everyone i knew, to tell them how i feel about them, to apologise for the things i've done? to tell them how much i actually love them and stuff like that?
after thinking, i dont think i'd do that. even if that means some people will remember me as a stuck-up bitch or quiet mouse.
i feel, i dont want to seem like some image-conscious person who wants the world to think that i am perfect. i am only human and i have my mistakes and my falls. sure i'd want to leave a good impression, who doesnt? but i guess the latter is for us to do on earth while we're still living, instead of trying to be who you arent when you're dying isnt it.

i watched the show seeing how wilson was so unreluctant to let amber (his wife) go.. and towards the ending, how his heart hurt so much when he watched her fade off. how they spent the last moments when he himself had to turn off the kidney dialysis machine when her time was up.. you could feel the pain from just watching him hold her and touch her face and hair as amber breathed her last.
i dont think i could have done it, i wouldnt want to let the love of my life go.. especially if i had to do it with my own hands.
ohman. everyone should watch it.
it definitely was a good showto ignite the senses, to see how friendships can take different turns and seriously, how good the actors are.
as of now, i cant get the picture of wilson and amber lying on the bed, saying their last goodbyes.

i want to cry..
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vanessa