Saturday, July 26, 2008

i read (past tense) jane's blog
and for the past couple of months, with all the anger and bitterness that is pent up within, i became humble to the word of God.
again, it's hard for me to forgive and forget.

i cant tell the difference between forgive and forgetting.
forgiving, i can say "i forgive you" and yet, when memories of the incident comes up, i remember the feelings and i feel anger all over again. so is that forgiving?
forgetting. how do i forget? minute (pronounced "my-newt") details i can afford to discard.. but what if the incident affected me in a large way.. it's the same way i talked about love in the previous post.

it's like saying, i forgive hongtat for what he's done.
yet i still have this itsy bitsy hint of resentment for him.
so what does that amount to?

either way, i just thought i should say that God is watching my every move. and speaking to me through others.. man! this is scary.

jane :
"Lord help me forgive those who have hurt me,
give me peace ad fill my heart with love,
that i may show love through actions, thoughts, and words
even to those whom i find hard to love"

vanessa.c