Monday, August 11, 2008

death cab for cutie - i will possess your heart

ohman!!!
we exchanged eye contact again!!!
i tell you, the highlight of everyday is to see that nameless guy who's always so nice!!!
okay, first thing's first.
the first glance we exchanged was when i was going to the back of the office to fax over some documents to a courier company. then, for no reason, i looked his way. and for some reason, he was looking my way too!
-giggles-
haha!!! it was so embarrassing, i didnt dare to smile back and had instead looked away..
-curses-
the second time, it was SO FREAKING BRIEF!!! but it made me smile the rest of the day. even now, more than 5hours later.. thing is, my pass is already working. so i dont need anyone to press the access button from the inside of the office. but when i came back from the toilet outside of the office, and he was walking towards the door, he saw me and he, for no apparent reason, pressed the access button and walked past me into another room..
his red jacket is all i can remember walking in front of me. haha!!!
so technically, i'll just refer to him as the red jacket guy. but he's oh-my-goodness-i-cant-forget-him kind of nice.. haha!!! i think, i fall for the most interesting of guys.. bird knows who one of them is. it's just so sad he doesnt make the first move.. make it!!!
(:
then again, i do come off a little snubbish when i'm shy/scared/not in a comfortable situation.. but i'm overall pretty nice..
man! i wonder about red jacket. ok. let's make it even shorter. RJ. so yes. his initials will be RJ.
and no way am i going to take a picture of him! it'll be WAY too weird.. and the sad thing is, we are located at the different ends of the office.. but i do get to see the top of his head when i stand up. but seriously speaking, the only thing i look out for at work is the red jacket that he wears. and heck! i dont even know his name.
not forgetting religion, age. you know the rest. haha!!!
but there's this older guy who sits directly opposite me, who's really good looking. by this good looking, i mean CONVENTIONAL good looking. he's got the super tanned and good complexion. and to top it off, he has a deep voice.. but the one factor that brings him WAY down, is that he smokes.. quite a bit of a turn off.. and i only found it out today when i came back from the toilet (which was after RJ opened the door for me) and i sniffed the air around my table.. the stench of smoke.. oh! he also freshens his mouth with some pretty nice smell.. i cant pinpoint the scent but it's super familiar!
oh wells. RJ's nicer. HAHA!!!

but frankly speaking, i dont think we'll ever know each other's names and stuff since we dont talk at all and i'm always shying away from him. haha! he IS good looking to me! of course i'll be shy! man! too bad i wont be working tomorrow.. otherwise..
-woo woo-
haha!!! again, honestly speaking. it's been such a long time since i've felt this way.. and it really is such a nice feeling to be back into something that has been missing and ripped apart..
the feeling of being noticed, of waking up every morning to remember a nice face to look forward to in the day. the simple things that the other person does that places a smile on your face and how the memory of it carries you through the darkest of days.. and even when you're all alone, you remember the face and it just.. fills you with this warmth.. and you dont feel so alone no more..
(:
yeah.. it's that kind of feeling.. and i still cant stop smiling when i think of the times he and i exchanged glances and the way he opened the door for me.
(:
and his red jacket.. haha!!! it's so striking really.. he's the only one in the office who wears red on a non-national-day day. haha!!!
if only.. if only..

anyways!!!
haha!!! got to go to bed for now.. it's already 0100 and i've got to go back to school tomorrow for some ppp lesson. professional p-something p-something.. heard from the rest of the classmates that it bores the crap out of them.. haha!!! i'd better remember to bring my chocolates to keep me company. i wonder who else is going tomorrow!!!
oh ya! meeting one dear cousin after school to go to ikea!!!
i remember wanting to get something from there, but i just.cant.figure.it.out!!!
nehnehpok.

haha!!! alrights then.. loves loves!!! it's tuesday!!!
oh ya! i ordered 2 tops from a spree site, for david&goliath tees. haha!! one says
"Come To The Dark Side, We Have Cookies"
and the other says
"Rock Is Dead, Long Live Paper And Scissors"
haha!!! uber cute!!! cant wait for them to arrive.. and and and!!! i hope they have victoria's secrets' spree so i cant get the funky undies! not that anyone other than i, will feast the eyes on them, but seriously, they are so funky!!!
-grins-
alrights alrights.. got to go!!!
loves!!!

vanessa