Sunday, August 24, 2008

flo rida ft. timbaland - elevator

i know, what kind of songs am i listening to isnt it!!!
but after watching step up 2 the movie, i guess. these songs do make me want to move a little more.. nonetheless, those smooth jazz tunes and slow ballads still are my all time favourites..
so anyway, about RJ. i still feel this really sad longing to see him again..
so minn and i were chatting on msn last night and i told her something. i'm actually afraid that if i do end up, finding him somewhere on the internet, then it turns out that he already has a girlfriend, is younger than me, different religion and all that might stand between us come up. then what do i do?
how depressing is this really?
another thing.
for the past 2 nights, shuwei and minn said
"hope you dream of RJ tonight!"
and frankly speaking, i wished i did too.. but the weirdiest of things happened last night. i dreamt, i got a missed call from hongtat!!!
like.. what on earth?!!
I SAID DREAM.OF.RJ!!!!
NOT HT!!!
there's such a huge difference!!! R is nowhere near H and neither is J!!! and they dont look alike!!! okay, maybe a little similarities here and there because of the really nice eyes that RJ has, and how the both of them likes red.. still!!! RJ is so much better than ht and i didnt ask anything of ht!!! i havent had ht on my mind since like, A VERY LONG TIME AGO!!!
nehnehpok!!!
-sulks-

right now.. i'm feeling a wee bit anxious and scared.. dont know what to expect tomorrow. i think. the first thing i'll do tomorrow in the morning when i reach for work, as a habit, will look for his red jacket at the area that he sits.. if its there, i'll start mass-texting minn, yuanzhi and shuwei, siying.. and maybe peggy if she's back from malaysia.. but if it isnt.. then then!!! i think i'll just text minn and be all depressed..
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i'm scared..
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but i guess.. even if things dont work the way i want them to, there are others i hope. haha!!!
guitar boy?!
maybe maybe... then again, i might not be right for him..
oh wells.. just.. hope really hard..
i'll update as soon as i can!!!

vanessa