Friday, October 17, 2008
God has got me thinking these couple of days.
actually, someone else made me remember God.
life since i had started work became mundane, i didnt really feel God around, i didnt feel this, special emotion when you're close to God. i always get that high emotion when i go for church camps, then i feel whole, feel one with God. i remember to pray, i always do even when i'm on the bus, or even in the toilet. that was how much God was on my mind when times were supposedly "good".
right now, life is just, blah.
i havent been talking to Him much, havent been listening to Christian songs to help me do my praise & worship.. heck, i havent even been reading my bible and doing my quiet time..
as of recent times, when i think of the future, i just, want to look to God and put my entire being in His hands and just, leave it up to Him. i can tell you it's difficult, to not know what's going to happen, not know what my future is.. i want to know the things that i want to know, now..
i want to know where i'd be after i graduate from polytechnic,
i want to know if i'd ever be attached,
i want to know who i'd be attached to,
i want to know so many things that i dont really know where to start and where to stop.
all i know now, i guess, i have to start living my life the way it should be, always putting God before anything else and allocating proper time for Him.. i've been neglecting my spiritual relationship so much that i'm changing..
i am not who i used to be. and i want to change, to change for the better, to change for God..
i'll probably start by listening to more Christian songs and setting time for pure quiet time. 10-11pm perhaps? no. shall make it in the morning.
we'll see what comes out of it.
loves!
starfield
alive in this moment
it's been so long since i have met You here
since i have said these words or cried these tears
and like a child would come, i run into our secret place
and as the music fades, the tears are rolling down my face
i am alive in this moment
in this moment i am found
i am alive in this moment
in this moment i belong
its been so long since i have met You here
since i have heard You speak or let You near
and like a wayward son i've come with nothing left to hide
here in this moment i have come to offer up my life
i am alive in this moment
in this moment i am found
i am alive in this moment
in this moment i belong
here only one fire burns, it burns
here only one melody is heard
once again for the very first time
my eyes are opening
i am alive in this moment
in this moment i am found
i am alive in this moment
in this moment i belong
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