Sunday, October 19, 2008

here's a short post to get some things off my chest for now as a way to serve my memories should they slip from my mind.. too many things to think about recently.
and before i go into that, you can see the dear cousin's reply about her "banana wheelchair" origins. haha!!! the silliest things isnt it? banana wheelchair.. of all things. HAHA!!!
anyways! here's the short post. the one with pictures will have to be on hold for now..

got off the phone with ting just a couple of hours ago, talking about the holidays and we're planning to go to taiwan this upcoming december holidays.
so after awhile, we decided that if we arent able to go this year-end, we'll go next year when the next major holidays are here.
then i realised... okay, maybe not realised, but more of like, it hit me really hard, thinking where i should go after i graduate from polytechnic. i mean, NIE is definitely in the cards but i dont know if i really want to go there and serve a three-year bond with MOE.. then there's all the application procedures to go through and all..
after that, what if i dont get in? then where do i go and what do i do?
i think about the workload and the things i have to do and i just, feel lost..
i dont know if teaching is God's calling for me. what if i'm just meant for the workforce, to be in a office doing desk-work..
well, all the more for me to do more quiet-time with God isnt it?

i want to hear Your voice
i want to know Your ways for my life
i want You to lead me each and every step of the way
help me open my ears dear Lord and listen to Your words, i need to hear You
i need You my God

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