Wednesday, October 1, 2008

this post is at the request of peggy! haha!!!
again, this will be short. 2308hr already!

tuesday 30/09/08
the time is practically "slowing to a crawl"
here i am, stuck in the freezing office with the darn centralise air-conditioner going on at probably, i dont know, 21 degree celcius? 1 hour more to the end of work. oh wait, let me be a little sarcastic here. 1 hour 3 mins.
lets see how long time moves until i end this entry.
i realised, writing with the old-school ballpoint pen and paper, is pretty fun as i do tend to write my punctuations properly and also capitalizing my first letters. haha!
still, i prefer typing because my hands cant move as fast as my brain when i'm writing. technology. pfft! haha!!!
okay, 7 minutes has passed. 5.34pm as stated on the desktop. so slow!
oh! they're using desktop. a bank! desktop? i think its time to upgrade! the darn thing takes up so much space on the table that people have to stack things really high up. if i could, i would take a picture and show you guys.
ah! only 2 minutes has passed!
i think i'm getting a little obsessed now arent i?
-sulks-
the sky looks pretty nice at this time of the day i'd say. clouds and a light blue sky.
oh! what colour is sky blue? i mea, the sky's always changing its tint of blue so how did that person (whoever he/she is). determine sky blue is THAT shade of blue? weird huh! bet you guys didnt think of that! HAHA!!!
ah! only 3 minutes has passed! 5.40pm
2 minutes!
i've been having these points of time where i'd look up from reading my book and just staring at the screen or looking outside the window beside me.
1 minute!
i'm going to start counting the seconds if i've got nothing better to say.
1 minute again!
my fingers are absolutely freezing!
ah! 5.45pm!
this holiday seems to pass pretty quickly i realised. i mean, from where i am now, dating 30/09/08. just around 6-7 weeks ago, i just started my holidays and work. then POOF! 1 more week and i'm going back to school. honestly, i dont know what i want. work? or school?
5.48pm
so everyone's asking me now
"VANESSA! WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO NEXT?!"
again, i'm confronted with the fact that i might not get into university.
if i do, what am i going to study?
i'd like to study english very much thank you!
but what does IT have to do with wanting to study english?
then again, which univeristy offers such a degree?
my my.
degree in english.
cool stuff!
i do wonder what they teach and conduct exams.
5.56pm!
6.30pm soon please! hurry hurry!
at least peggy's text messaging me. haha!!!
making fun of her about stuff. so silly! i think work's driving me bonkers!
5.58pm!
ah! i cant wait formy spree things to arrive!
david&goliath
2 taiwan sprees, 1 bags, 1 clothes.
i think i have ordered quite a lot of items.
i honestly cant remember how many i ordered. haha!!!
for the clothes, i think i have about.. 11 items? could be more!
bags are around, 4? or was it 3?
6.01pm
6.02pm
yay! 28 more minutes!
crap! my phone's battery is dying! i hope qiqi has a nokia phone charger at home! ah yes, i'm staying over.
6.04pm
which reminds me.
last week's events!
stayed over at qiqi's house on friday after teaching meimei. got too late to take the bus so i stayed over. a little reluctant to leave my darling bolster at home. haha!
those who have seen my bolster always make fun of me. haha! it's so teeny! it stands up to my knee! haha! cute aye.
so yeah, chatted with my aunt and with qiqi and i realised who much i've lost contact with God over these couple of months.
i've always heard of God talking to an individual directly and i long to hear Him talking to me.
is He the voice that i hear when my conscience pokes or would there be a loud thundering sounds, with His voice, specifically a male voice, like another human in the same room, talking to me?
6.12pm
i dont want to ask others because i feel, its a personal thing, that renders the utmost respect and privacy.
i'm pretty much a lukewarm Christian at this point of time, not moving back, neither am i moving forward.
6.15pm
so where do i stand?
i need to get back to feeling that highness when i'm worshipping God. i'm practically feeling lost, nearly without direction. the only thing i know i must do, is to get back on the road, letting God take the wheel of my drive.
6.18pm
alrights, i got to go soon! start packing!
love love!

vanessa.c