Sunday, November 23, 2008

here's a another post since i got tired of thinking of what to write for my assignment paper.
last night, i was chatting with a friend with a problem.
we both faced this issue of wanting to date a non-Christian. the relationship didnt work out. thing is, it didnt even start to begin with. and it broke our hearts deeply to see what we prayed for burn into carbon then to nothing.. well, i commented that though we may see it as just ashes that became nothing, we never know what the effects that we had on that person.. we might have left a good impression for him to remember by, a thought to think when he reminisces.
we both found it hard to say "i'm letting it go" when our hearts are pierced by the pain and we are constantly reminded of the past of what could have been and what was..
throughout the chat, i was talking about how we should trust God and believe that whatever He does, it ultimately will be for our own good.. but i realised she couldnt see herself without him.. that he was THE ONE.. that her previous talk of how the ultimate goal was for him to know God didnt exactly stand true. she hopes that he'll know God but she wants to be with him.
and for that, i'm afraid. i'm afraid she'll lose sight of her faith and lose the relationship she had with God..
what is prayer without hope? what is life without hope?
people say we shouldnt hope too much so that when our expectations arent met, we wont feel the pinch, we wont feel the disappointment. but i say, so what if they werent met? does that mean that it will never be met? we cant just be happy only when things go our way.. when things dont go our way, when our expectations arent met, are we just going to sit there and pout and complain all day? no we shouldnt. when things dont go our way, we should make a stand and change things for the better. work for what we want and in the process, not to hurt anyone.. so i say, HOPE! put your faith to work. HOPE for hope, brings life to our lives. hope should always be a part of our daily lives. we should hope the way we used to when we were younger.. always viewing things in an optimistic light. because without hope, life is just meaningless.

so anyways, i thought it would be good if i'd add on, saying that although we may feel that we're losing a part of ourselves when we let a relationship go, we're also gaining on experience that life gives us.. so when the next one comes along, we might know how to handle it better.. like what daphne once told me, that getting our hearts broken many times over, is better than never broken at all.. this way, we'll be able to cherish the one who God has designated for us..

bonnie mckee
somebody

i sit alone, a dark theatre
watching the people go by hand in hand, everybody but me
oh
i stay behind, watching the credits roll by
roll, roll, roll right by me

well i know, i wont cry cause there is somebody, somebody
somebody waiting for me out in the rain
i wont cry, not tonight
cause there is somebody waiting for me
oh yeah

i take a walk
the streets are busy tonight
and i'm searching for you
waiting to brush your shoulder
when i'm alone
i watch the faces roll by
roll, roll, roll right by me

well i know, i wont cry cause there is somebody, somebody
somebody waiting for me, out in the rain
i wont cry, not tonight
cause there is somebody waiting for me

how many words will go unspoken
oh
till i hear knocking on my door
i need some talking, the night i spent heartbroken
but tonight i know
i wont cry no more
oh

i lie awake
i left the porch light on
i hope it helps you to find your way

outside
i hear the thunder roll by
roll, roll, roll right by me

i know, i wont cry cause there is somebody, somebody
somebody waiting for me, out in the rain
not gonna cry tonight
no
cause there is somebody waiting for me
not gonna cry tonight
no no no no no no no
oh yeah
oh, not gonna cry
not tonight
cause there is somebody waiting for me

i stay behind, watching the credits roll by
roll, roll, roll right by me

vanessa.c