Sunday, November 9, 2008

recently, with the reality of nearly losing a friend, i guess it forced me to think over the things i've done and the things that are going on in my head. of course, the things that might happen too.
on a side note before i continue, i think sundays are the best days. sundays always give me this sudden realisation of life and the things happening around me.. nearly like an epiphany or something. haha!
so yes, back to the main topic. everyday, we lose sight of something that should mean something to us.. maybe it's that special pencil that you used to love in primary school, that you decided should be thrown away because you dont need it anymore. maybe it's that necklace that an ex-boyfriend gave to you and you want to forget about him.
yet everyday, we gain insight to our lives, we gain knowledge, we gain friendships, we become who we were really meant to be..
so as things constantly change and as we slowly grow, we are all bound to make mistakes.. we can choose to learn from it or to just let it pass and just regret it.. in my case, well, at least for now, i choose to learn from it. and learning from a friend, i'm going to apologise to the many people i've been rude to, who have received the brunt of my PMS and many other reasons for flaring up. although i do still stand by my reasons for being so anal, i guess after so many sundays with God constantly poking me at the back of my head, its time i gave in to Him and just, admit my mistakes, to just, accept defeat because i am also human and i make mistakes too and i'm bound to make one one day and someone else will scrutinize me for the things i've done. so here are the list of people. wait. actually, there are alot. haha!! nah, dont think i'll do a list. i'm kind of in the mood for bed already. but i guess, they know who they are.
like i've said, i cant accept people as they are and i want them to change. the same applies to me. i want to change for the better but i fail sometimes so forgive me if i fail to be a good example of a Christian or fall short of your expectations of a Christian or as a friend.

now that's off my chest, 1 less thing to think about! yay!
alrights. got to go already. school at 0900 tomorrow.. which means.. i have to be up at 0700.
-sulks-
alrights. oh!
jane gave me a belated birthday present, a daily devotional which is absolutely beautiful. will post pictures the next time.
which also reminds me. minn & ting! where is my present!!! 1 month overdue!!! red packet also can!!!
(:

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