Tuesday, November 25, 2008

whoa! two posts in under 5hours!
anyways, in a sad bid to do my assignment, i gave up and mum called me just in time, to watch a show.
it's about this guy named nick who was born without limbs. yes i said it, limbs. no arms and no legs. he was giving this talk to a group of students in a australian school about self esteem and accepting oneself for who he or she is. and he kept repeating
"i love you" and "you are beautiful just the way you are"
i honestly wanted to cry.. you could say that he was a really good speaker but i'd say he spoke truth with his heart and thats what made him such a inspirational speaker. it helps that he's a Christian too, and at the same time, i felt like God was talking to me through him, telling me that i dont have to seek other people's opinion of me, to be me because i am special the way i am. i dont have to be thin to be accepted, i dont have to be clever to be remembered. i am accepted, remembered, loved, for being me, for my good character..
i liked the way he had such faith that he was going to find his wife and how he talked about keeping his virginity just for her, saying how she was worth the long wait.. i wish my future husband would do the same.. but yes, it was just something that i thought i should blog about.. seeing how God is making His impact on my life.. if nick could have that faith that he was going to get married, why not i.
anyways, here's is a link to his website AttitudeIsAltitude
he is truly a testimonial to God's changing grace..

and just on a side note, i just recalled, for some weird reason, the night my mum knelt beside my bed and cried while i was on the painkiller that made me sleep after my operation..
the funny thing, i just realised that i wasnt supposed to wake up after taking the painkiller because it acted like a sleeping pill and when someone takes a sleeping pill, that person will not wake up until the drug wears off.. so my waking up after taking that painkiller was a miracle on its own.. thinking back, i think it was God who made me wake up because my mum wasnt crying loudly.. she was sobbing really uncontrollably and i remember her clasping her hands as she prayed and cried.. i only remember her saying
"if i knew you would go through so much pain, i wouldnt have agreed to the operation."
i remember assuring her that i was okay and then drifted back to sleep.
this image of her crying is burnt so deeply in my mind that i dont think i can ever forget.. every once in awhile, God reminds me of this and i am filled with great love, guilt, pain for my mum..

and on an ending note
something nick said after all his speeches, to have hope and never give up.

vanessa.c