Friday, February 27, 2009

i am actually, at a loss and a little scared.
having finally finished poly studies, i actually dont know what i'm going to do if i dont get into university. oh. did i mention that i'm scared? i do believe so.
in a way, you could say i'm putting all my eggs into one basket for my university applications. choosing the same kind of schools instead opening up my options. dont know if i'll actually regret it.

on the other hand, planning for the class chalet has been in the works. we're close to finishing the food and other necessities. probably going to get the rest on the first day itself to save us the trouble.. the location scares me though. changi aloha.
i dont know why i'm scared of what i'm am afraid of. i'm thinking it's all the stories they say. all the rumours and stuff..
i've always been quite afraid of ghosts and spirits but i cant help but feel drawn to watching the show ghost hunters on starworld.
i know its weird. but i guess i'm unique that way. haha!!!
then again, i've been also praying more often, for strength and such. surprisingly, i've been more at peace. wait, that shouldnt come as a surprise. haha! but honestly, i was. i think prayers and time with God definitely helps in keeping people more calm and makes us all nicer people.

i actually have tons of things on my mind. but i dont know what to say.

i caught juno on starmovies today and somehow when the lead actress asked her dad that question, i realised that it resonates within me too..
she asked if 2 people can always stay together and that she would like to believe that it happens.
you know, to a certain extent, i've yet to see a couple who are REALLY old and are still together and, still madly in love with each other.
i know of older couples but not REALLY OLD.
maybe age has caught up and stuff but yeah, you get my drift?
its so sad..

anyways!
shawn's back from his fieldcamp and has tons of stories to tell.. mostly about this guy who is seriously funny. HAHA!!! i honestly laughed like mad. what lives they lead isnt it..

anyways! i've been addicted to bakerzin's macarons and bought quite a fair bit home. i am in love, IN LOVE!!! with the sakura, coffee and the lemon ones..
mummy says i should stop eating them because i'm getting fatter and i honestly believe her. i cant fit into my top.
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of course it sucks!
there's this layer of blubber that wont go away. and i think it's not going anywhere until i get burnt or get cold hard cash to suck it all away. HAHA!!
and that's scary.

OKAY!!!
i shall leave it here first and go sleep!
i'm such a bag of fats sometimes. haha!
loves!!!

vanessa.c