Wednesday, March 4, 2009

i've often wondered how i got through all the things that i've did.
i dont know how i maintain my sanity and be this crazy. wait. irony!!! haha!! crazy meaning funny/fun.
i guess, it has a lot to do with God and Him placing the right people at the right time in my life. i honestly thank God for bird because without her, i dont think i could have lasted very long.. for the nights that i keep ranting about things to her, for always offering a listening ear and advices.. and it doesnt hurt to have a future doctor as a friend too! haha!!! her perspectives have often allowed me to think about life's issues in a different light and you know, help me think more.. i would also have probably skipped church a whole lot more if she wasnt around. haha! that, i'll give it to her..
and jane too! for always sms-ing me when i dont turn up for church. (: for noticing when i dont turn up, means someone notices me! haha! i heart the girls!

with everything going on in my life right now, i think i'm taking them quite well.. i havent been as open as i used to be about my life as some of the long-time readers know.. the friends who have been following me since my first blog will have noticed a whole lot of changes.
no more vulgarities being top on the list. haha!

i actually regret deleting my old blogs. seriously.
at much as i would have hated reading all my horrible rantings with a whole lot of vulgarities and the emotional roller coaster that i was on, i think it would be nice to really see the difference in my life. haha!!
just a little regret there.

i've been trying to clear my room and throwing away a lot of things.. tons of paper!
got a whole list of things to do for this period of free time.
even taking up cooking! yes, i shall be trying my hands at cooking with help from recipe books of course! but not this week.. my schedule is totally stretched.

thursday - dinner with bird & timo & some other people.
friday - lunch with young adults pastor.
saturday - caregroup socials in church
sunday - i know there's something on but i just cant remember
monday to wednesday - chalet
thursday or friday - lunch/dinner with ting.

and it's going to pile up as soon as the weeks come.
hopefully my university application goes through!

i'll probably blog after my chalet unless i'm really free! i'm in the process of.. erm..
purging?
haha!!! just getting rid of things that i dont need and arranging things again..
(dont i always do that? even shuwei, who has been to my house less than 5 times know).

oh oh!!!
we met with a damn sick stalker/pervert!!!
i was quite tramatized by it. haha!!! we were at daiso on monday shopping for fun.
then shuwei realised there was this guy in formals, looking quite disgusting, following us around holding his phone. she immediately took off with the trolley and went to a corner. i asked her why she came here and she told me that the guy was following us. i had already noticed him but i didnt realise he wasnt looking at the products. so while shuwei was hiding behind the shelf, i stood right where he could see me and folded my arms. then i saw him looking in my direction and then he looked the other way. so i continued to follow his movement, not moving at all. shuwei was telling me to hide desperately but i just refused and continued staring. HAHA!! then he caught my stare a second time and that was the last we saw of him.
although it made me a little scared, it was quite thrilling. HAHA!!! not thrilling when there's a stalker but more like thrilling because i stood up to a pervert! okay, not like go up to him and say "oy. what the hell are you doing" but just knowing that i'm not afraid to face this kind of shit is thrilling. HAHA!!!
shuwei was quite amused by the entire thing. HAHA!!! quite fun. HAHA!!!

alrights. think i'll leave it as it is for now as i sort the things out in my head; which are tons!

and here's a song i've been so in love with. i cant find the cover for the song by the artist that i love. well, here are the lyrics. enjoy!

ashtar command
into dust

still falling
breathless and on again
inside today
beside me today
a round broken in two
til your eyes shed into dust
like two strangers turning into dust
til my hand shook the way of fear

i could possibly be fading
or have something more to gain
i could feel myself growing colder
i could feel myself under your fate
under... your fate

it was you
breathless and tall
i could feel my eyes turning into dust
and two strangers turning into dust
turning into dust

vanessa.c