Monday, April 20, 2009

i remember why i never wanted to talk much about God.
because its painful when you dont have all the answers that they seek.
when you have to keep arguing about what you believe in
even when they are not receptive.
when all they do is try to refute what you have to say.
and it tires me out but i try to persevere.
i tried it once and when i failed, i just knew i didnt want to try it again.
to feel the pain i felt after i cried for nearly four days.

now that i've tried again, i think, i'm going to go down the same road, except without all the crying.
its a tiring process that i risked going through and i dont know how long it'll take me to get over this.
i honestly wish, wished, i have all the answers.

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