Friday, June 12, 2009

i felt a need to talk about God these few days.
i dont know what words i could use or what i could talk about.
i was reminded of the times when He was there for me even when i hadnt asked for specific help. i realised i never talked much about God. i never know the right things to say. like, nothing comes up.
sometimes, the things that i want to share feels so personal to me that i am reluctant to tell. take the recent funeral for example.
i was so upset about it and i kept looking through the bible for answers, for comfort. i found a few passages that gave me a little comfort.

there are so many things to talk about in my religion that i dont know where to begin. everything's so controversial.
i am someone who believes that things happen for a reason. i may not know the reason for the things that happen to me but i know that one day, i'll find them out. either on hindsight or when i meet God. be it a test of faith, strengthening of faith or what-have-you. then its up to our freewill, to choose the outcome.

i am thankful that i'm always going back to the heart of worship and looking to God's words when i feel lost. i have problems accepting the fact that death occurs to those i love and that it actually occurs at all but again, i know my God is good and everything will be made beautiful in His time.

isaiah 58:11
the Lord will guide you continually, giving you water when you are dry and restoring your strength.

thank you bird for the book, for it has given me much encouragement during this time. for allowing me grieving time.

vanessa.c