so here's a picture of the cousins! obviously a handful of them didnt turn up! made me sad. oh wells!

anyways, nothing much has happened. nothing interesting that is. other than the fact that i've cut my hair!!! it's honestly very short, the shortest i've ever been in my entire life, past the baby stage. haha!!! but i feel quite empowered by it somehow. HAHA!!! i feel very, hmm. i cant find the word to describe it actually. it's almost like and ego-boost or something. more daring.. quite exciting really.

now that i've stopped working at the before and after school care in church, i have an entire week to get things done at home before i start work again and spend more time with my mum. i'll miss the kids terribly because i've grown attached to them. it's really bad when you grow these bonds with the kids cause, i dont know why, but i have this need to want to protect them. it's not like some motherly instinct, dont get me wrong. it's like, a big sister sort of thing you know. and no, i dont want to be a big sister to so many of them because after awhile, i dont want to let go. dont worry, i'm not a paedophile! gosh no. that's just gross.

actually, i havent got much to talk about. it's so weird having nothing to talk about when there are so many things running around in my head. well, one day at a time aye? and talking about that! the future, is honestly, a scary thing to think about. i havent really given it much thought but if i dont get into the teaching profession, what would i do? i think it's time to go sit in a corner and mull about it. haha!!!

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