Monday, February 15, 2010

you're missing out on whatever celebrations we have this year.
you're missing out on the laughter, the gatherings, the teasing and food.
would you come back for a moment just so i can see you again.
why should the world keep turning when you're gone.
why should the world keep turning when anyone's gone.
things arent the same.
things will never be the same.
so why it seem like everyone forgot you were here.
why does everyone seem to be having fun.
could we even celebrate.
you are gone and i dont want to celebrate anything.
even birthdays arent complete.
every celebration is meaningless.
i want to call your name again.
i want to hear you call my name again.
i still hear your footsteps in my head.
i keep trying to find you in the dark, in the living room and out on the balcony.
but you are never there. not even a shadow.
i thought i heard you snore the other time.
can you tell me where you are so i know where to look for you.
my heart aches for you and my tears still fall.
can you see it, can you feel it.
time doesnt heal, and it hasnt been any easier.
i still cant find the strength to smile when i think of you.
there is so much pain as i remember everything.
it wrecks my head and my heart and i cant breathe.
i have your keys in my room and i left them where you can find it easily.
if you are back, please, take it.
take it and come home.
i dont want to see you in pictures because they arent enough for me.
are you lonely and cold where you are
please know you're always on my mind everyday.
i wish i could be where you are.
because i miss you so badly.
because nothing's the same without you.
nothing at all.

vanessa.c