Thursday, April 15, 2010

its exactly 11 months since she's left and i am reminded of her last few days with us at home today.

i hate it. i hate every second it, of being alive here and not knowing where she is.
i want to believe that she's in heaven.
and i want, need, plead, for that confirmation because it's killing me from the inside.

last week was crazy with a big decision i made at work.
i can divulge much but i can honestly tell you that it's really by God's grace that i have this job, and be able to pay for the things that i consume and save.

i havent got much to talk about since there's nothing much happening in my life.
its quite sad but i'm coping!
(:
on a happier note, a trip to malaysia is in the works!
exciting stuff!
but we cant decide if we want to drive up or take the plane up. driving will probably be more fun but plane saves us more time. HAHA!

i'm feeling way fat!
ah. alrights. got to go for now otherwise my migraines are going to kill me tomorrow at work and i have too many things to do to sit there and feel like crap.
loves!!!

vanessa.c