Sunday, June 13, 2010

i know it has been some time since i made any proper posts.
but there hasnt much happening that deserves much air-time on my blog.


something that i think does deserve some recognition is the fact i'm reading through a book with serene.
now i am accountable to someone in my walk with God, to knowing Him more.
through talking with serene about the book, we got to share about the problems we face in our personal lives and the struggles we have even at this point of time.
it was liberating, to share my problems with a fellow Christian, who can see things from a different perspective. i remember telling elizabeth about my problems and when she shared hers. there's this comfort in knowing someone of the same faith understands and can give you advice, or even just listen..
i know some people have a mindset that Christians are practically perfect. or have to be perfect in that sense.
and it's so difficult to live up to that image when we are as fallen as anyone is. we are as human as the next person to you on the bus, train, anywhere.

but serene and i were talking, about how Jesus changes someone when they allow Him into their lives.
let's start somewhere close. let start from me.

we all have our pasts. the good, the bad, the ugly.
i was slightly on the bad-ass side in secondary school, so angsty and filled with quite bit of hate. everything was never good enough.
sunday mornings were the only time i was good. sometimes, not.
but the period before i went for my operation and since then, i've noticed changes.
there are many things about me that has changed.

i honestly believe, when someone really and truly knows God, their habits, characters, mindset and everything else that makes a person, will fine-tune itself, to seeking God and striving to be like Him. to be Christ-like. making a conscious effort is a way to start and from what i've heard and read, it's always going back to the Bible.

life has been pretty good so far i believe.
(:

went to jurong point last week to try on the bridesmaid dresses for carol's wedding and it's a pretty dress! not something i would have picked out on my own but it looks good!
my roadtrip to malaysia has been changed, to flying there and back because we realised driving up will cost us so much more. so i guess that's something to look forward to!

love on the other hand, has been a little cold towards me. haha!!!
it's always the case with me.
i like this guy, but this guy doesnt feel the same way.
this other guys likes me, but i dont feel the same way.
nothing ever changes. i think i'm a little skeptical to talk about love now. haha!! not that i dont believe in love! i still do! i really do.
but i guess i havent spoken about it in such a long time that i dont know where i should begin. i definitely hope to talk about it some time in the near future, of how beautiful everything is when love between 2 people exists.

speaking of love, i miss my grandaunt. i dont have the aching pain now but i dont know if it's because i've been so caught up with everything in my life to actually think of her. still, i guess that's good right?

on an ending note!!!
i miss my ting ting!!! ting!!! if you see this, can you reply our sms-es?!! amanda and i have been trying to reach you!!!
):
we miss you so much so please?! reply us soon!!! you're going to pay a heavy price when you get back! and i mean, pay a heavy price, literally!

alrights! i think this is all i have for now. this blog feels so dead when i've got nothing to say. oh my dear readers, please dont give up on me! (:


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