Friday, October 22, 2010

to cut or not to cut?
the haze is making me feel so sickly!

anyways! one less single cousin since last sunday! now she's mrs tong.
i liked when she mentioned God in her thank-you "speech", that she remembers her first love and the One will always be there for her no matter what comes her way. doesnt hurt with the Christian solemnizer too, taking verses out of the Bible and reminding us that it was sunday as well.
next stop, danny in church! haha!!!
hey, prayers do work! (:

the other thing that remains in my memory, is the picture of carol and my late grandaunt together. i wanted to thank carol for remembering our grandaunt on her big day, but i realised i never could find strength to thank her.. i watched as the picture slipped in from a corner and my entire table was hushed for that period.. i guess we all remember how much she was in our lives and a picture of her was enough to make the memories of her felt.. so in case carol ever reads this, thank you for remembering Gupo.

i have been a lot more reflective since i started the prayer study with serene.
i've been thinking about so many things that even when i have nothing to do physically, i feel so tired. even as i try to pray, i find my mind drifting.. as with everything else, i've been trying to work on it.

another wedding tomorrow!
feeling slightly sleepy, very tired and actually, make that quite sleepy. haha!

a friend asked me once, how much has changed since last year, and i thought of it for awhile and i realised, many things have changed. for the good, for the bad, many things changed.
i'm definitely wiser, growing in God and obviously some more things.
with age, i realised too, i've been burdened with more thoughts, more eventful events in my life.
i know i told many people, when they asked, what has changed, i'd say nothing much.
but in a way too, nothing much has changed.
every year, we are that much wiser, that much more burdensome with worldly issues.
so in that way, nothing has changed because that change is a constant. (cliched i know). haha!

i think i need my rest soon. or maybe its just the haze that it making my thoughts so boring.. i should try being a little less reflective for awhile now. haha!

on an ending note, Glee is just too good.. too good.
(:

vanessa.c