Sunday, December 5, 2010

its 13months since i started working! i'm still amazed at how quick time flies.
well, cliches are cliches for a reason right? haha!!!

i've really got so much in my mind that i really dont know what i should talk about.
i was reminded by a dear friend, that how keeping a blog helps us to jot down the things that happens, allowing us to one day "dig up" our interesting pasts when we're old and wrinkly. haha!!! it definitely makes sense to me, since i've changed so many blogs since i first started. i think i started with a lord of the rings themed layout with my oh-so ravishing elf legolas. haha!!! then i cant remember what it was but i remember one with a ballet shoe! i havent touched my layouts in a really long time since i've left my IT poly days. haha!!! i think i might be a little afraid of looking at all the html codes! i shall aspire to look into it one day in the coming year! haha!

i've been enjoying work, nearly all of my colleagues are really a joy to work with and my bosses have taken a liking to me for being hardworking and doing my job well. i actually really have to thank God really, for giving me such good bosses, making my character and habits this way for me to excel in my work and for placing me in this job. i definitely believe it isnt just pure coincidence that practically all of my working experiences has been quite great actually! so i have to give thanks for that.
(:

i feel so cluttered.. i REALLY need to set aside time on weekends to throw things away!!! or just rearrange things in my room!
oh, which reminds me of something i can blog about!
my brother, shawn, has been accepted in an australian university, to study a course he has always wanted to since he was a kid. like, kid KID. like, primary school kid, kid. haha!
it's a whopping 6-year course in perth and we're excited that he's been accepted for a direct entry into veterinary studies!
the only thing that is stopping him now, is financial problems. at AUD45k/year, for 5 years, it's definitely something that would stop most middle-class families in singapore isnt it?
my mum has been able to find enough to help finance shawn's first 3 years and we're now hoping to find enough guarantors for the 4th and 5th year study loan from a bank. for the last year, we're probably going to try hard to save up and i've already committed nearly half of his one year's fees based on my current salary's saving over the next 5 years to him.
i think and believe i'm ready to commit my next couple of years to work really hard, in whatever way i can to help ease my mum's burden and let him study. i'm not trying to say how good i am as a sister because i believe most siblings would do the same if they have the love for their family the way i do for mine.

which then leads me to my next topic!
my aunt was telling me how, if possible, to get shawn to settle for the course the local universities have offered to him, to ease both my mum's and my burden. she explained that i would have to think for myself, when i get married and all.
i was taken aback when she mentioned marriage, because i dont think i have that in mind although i know i want to one day.
i thought about it and realised, i'd rather see my brother do something he really has the passion for, then decide selfishly, to make him settle for something less that doesnt give him the drive to work just so i can satisfy myself. it also made me realise, if i commit my next years to working and saving for him, i'll be 28 when he returns back and probably not married. maybe even single. now who would want a single 28-year-old woman who doesnt have much to her name. even in this society, i dont think there's a man out there who would fork out money to pay for marriage and to support his wife fully in a financially cash-strapped world. i dont even think i have the money to get married! HAHA!!! maybe just one wedding dress to last the whole wedding day and that's the limit.

i am putting my faith in God, believing that He will help me work things out with the best in mind. presenting my requests to be attached one day, to get married, to provide for shawn and my mum, to still be able to serve Him and remember His goodness.

so here's to a new week!

vanessa.c