Sunday, May 15, 2011

15th may 2011

you have been on mind since the start of the day at the strike of 12.
its been a quick 3 years since you left.
i still imagine you around the house, looking at us when we pass the living room, when we open the fridge door.
i sometimes hope to see you at the seat at the balcony, smoking away at night. i still walk quietly towards the kitchen in the night when there's no one around, hoping you'd be there if i dont scare you away.
i imagine seeing your silhouette in the living room too you know?

i still miss you deeply and i'm not ready to talk about you without tearing up my soul. i have so much regrets that i cant forgive myself for. i cant let go until i hear you tell me you've forgiven me.

all the talk about death and life makes today even more dreary... i still wait for the Lord's answer, to the questions i have.

missing you hasnt been any easier. when does it get better?

vanessa.c