Monday, May 16, 2011

so much has changed since i posted in march.
my personality has changed and i know i'm not the same person.
i'm quick to anger and i've been more vocal about expressing my distaste.
i think i'm becoming more guy-ish in that sense.

i think i know the cause to all these mad behaviour. i think its my defense mechanism. whether that is true, remains unknown to me. i just need to tone it down a little.

i know how important is it for a family to have a strong male figure to lead. without a prominent male in my house, i find that i have to step up to the plate.

how is it that i dont have the good fortune of meeting decent guys and letting them change my view of men.

or maybe i just attract the scums. which, makes me one as well?
damaged goods will always be damaged goods.
no amount of scotch-tape, super adhesive glue, or whatever else will make it work. i'm probably going to be too practical to ever get attached.

and i hate it when i get this low.

vanessa.c