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hi consort! you definitely know me somehow since you know i used to have long hair when i was younger! i shall not pursue if you dont want to reveal yourself though! (: i'll try keeping the hair but i really suck at contacts! haha! maybe one day i'll give it a try!

haha hello ramen lover, yes indeed, a good ramen would help in chasing the nasties away, even if its for awhile! have you eaten marutama ramen's seasoned egg?! they're the best option for seasoned eggs if you ask me!

santouka's pork cheeks are 2nd on my list!!! the eggs are comparable too!!

quite a bit has happened since my last post. i've been asked out by a friend. i have never considered him before and i dont know if things would ever take that turn.. i've tried going out with him a couple of times just to see if things might work out but i havent been able to evoke any more than just good feelings for him.

is it wrong to want to give it a chance or should i have rejected him at the start to save us both time?

on the other hand, i have a colleague who has been trying to get me to talk to him more on whatsapp. he was nice initially and i naively thought we would be friends, but it turns out he thought that i was giving him a chance to be more than just friends. he gave me a whole load of crazy stuff when he found out i was having dinner with the guy whom i was trying out with. he went on about how i was playing the field, "going out with tons of guys to pick the best" and that he didnt want to be part of "race".

i was so offended that someone would think that of me that i fired back at him (nicely). haha!

that was a first time and then there was the second one, when i drew the line and told him to stop messaging me so often. he started going on about saying how he would never ask me out ever again (which i really dont mind considering how he was starting to come off as EXTREMELY possessive) and called me "crazy". then out of nowhere, he said one of the reasons why he left church before was because Christians are hypocrites, THEN (!!!) he told me to "STOP MSGING ME" when i have never, i repeat, never, initiated a conversation with him. of course, i stopped replying immediately, then decided to save myself more scolding by blocking him on whatsapp.

the story isnt clear enough but i really did wonder what i did to make him say that last statement about how Christians are hypocrites.

i dont know what's going on actually. haha!!! i want to fall in love, but when a nice guy comes along, i dont feel anything for him. the ones i have feelings for, dont feel the same way or are so odd that it doesnt work out the way i thought it would. i see friends getting attached and i wonder, how come they can find people who share the same feelings while i cant. painful when i think about it sometimes..

on a happier note! i went to kuala lumpur over the weekend to visit an ex-colleague turned friend. (:

had such a fun time shopping and our old chit chats and crazy talks. she invited us to her house to stay the night and drove us in the family's bmw around. i can tell you now (with experience backing me), that there is REALLY a lot of difference between luxury cars and working class cars. haha!! i never really got the whole brand thing with cars but i now really know!

anyways, i felt sad when we left the airport and wondered if we would see each other again. ):

crap, "on a happier note" ends with " ): "

i need some sweet happy things to perk me up. bakerzin's tiramisu soon. or maybe tampopo's teatime fluffy cake.

anyways! thank you again Consort and Ramen Lover for the encouragement! definitely makes for a good start to the coming week!! i REALLY do appreciate it! (:

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